I think what first inspired me to finally click that apply button was my own issues with my body. At the time I was feeling super low about my body shape and as much as my friends would hate me for hating myself, expressing that I had nothing to worry about because "Yeah but you're so skinny", they never really understood why I felt this way and I felt like I didn't have many people to turn to. So that was it. I remember being invited out by some friends for a few drinks but I couldn't find anything to wear that I felt sexy in so I just stayed in and moped about. I used to be so confident and well, I couldn't even tell you the day I lost that part of myself. So that night, I was scrolling through Instagram where I follow the Suicide Girls page and there were TONS of beautiful girls on my feed and I just thought fuck it why not? I really wanted to see if I COULD do it. I applied and well, long story (so far) short, I received an email saying I'd been accepted. I was completely over the moon! My next thought from then on was that I needed a photographer but I was too nervous to ask anyone. THEN next thing you know, @tripodski emailed me and said he wanted to do my first shoot!!!! I was thinking this couldn't be happening! So yep, we did the shoot and I fell completely in love with modelling. Whether it be nude or fully clothed, I was having the time of my life. I felt so confident toward the end of the shoot and I honestly feel like if Tripodski hadn't emailed me that day I don't think I would be where I am now as a Suicide Girl Hopeful with my first set coming out in 3 months!! Everyone I knew was so excited for me, all my friends couldn't believe I went from this body shy girl to being a SGH. Some awkward moments when some friends/family didn't really grasp what a Suicide Girl was so congratulated me but then once I started posting photos on Instagram that had some nudity, they were... well... pretty taken aback let's put it that way!! But I'm so glad to be where I am now and can't wait to start making other SG/SGH friends and join their journey while I'm on mine <3
Excuse the long blog, I get a bit enthusiastic about this subject lmao
@rambo @missy