In From Dusk Till Dawn Harvey Keitel asks George Clooney; "Are you such a looser that you can't tell when you've won?" I kind of feel that way right now.
You see I've been belly aching so much about not being able to fix my car I've completely ignored the fact that I was able to get any work done on her at all. I'm a fuck of a lot closer to getting her road worthy now than I was even one month ago. For that matter I should feel incredibly lucky that I've had the resources to do any work on her at all. Not three years ago my wife and I were both working and arguing amongst ourselves about what bills wouldn't get paid so we could have enough to eat. Now I'm working and my income alone is enough to keep the fridge stocked and the bills paid. Instead of bitching, whining and crying about not having my tags I should feel grateful that I have the resources to work on a project car at all. Besides I'm sooooo close to getting her road worthy. It'll be a year or two before she's really done but at this rate she will be done. There's no stopping it now.
"Why are you such a looser?" That question was asked of me almost every other day for two years by some bully on the U.S.S. Portland who seemed to think his standard of living applied to all. He wasn't the first one to ask me that just the most persistent. But when I really stop and think about it I'm a looser because I had to be. The 24 Hours of LeMans may have four winners, one in each respective class but it has 52 loosers. And if you look at the stats of drivers that go every year they loose more often than not.
"Why am I a looser?" Because I bothered trying in the first place and that's something to be proud of.