And this big runaway truck called life runs you right over.
I won't lie, this month has both sucked and been the source of some real awesomeness.
The Bad:
My father-in-law's birthday was a week or so back, the first one since he passed away. My wife was really hating life, suffering through grief but her mom was an utter wreck. My wife's parents were married over 60 years so mom doesn't really know how to live on her own. Plus she's suffering anxiety like a motherfucker so another reminder of loosing the love of her life is not what she needed. My wife, of course likes to internalize her loved one's suffering which when she's suffering herself only makes things 1,000,000,000,000,000 worse. If that wasn't bad enough while helping my wife through all of this I end having a nice little flashback of my own which brought back all kinds of feelings of remorse and guilt about MY father who passed away over two years ago. So here we are, a whole family of emo bitches whining and moping all over the place.
Then my daughter gets a nasty toothache. Its like getting kicked in the balls one last time after five huge thugs just finished beating the shit out of you.
The Good:
The birthday came and went and as it turns out the advice I gave my wife and her mother actually helped them both have a really good day. I told them the best thing to do on a birthday of a loved one who has passed is remind yourself just how lucky you really were to have known them. I told them we should feel grateful that we have the privilege of knowing the people who make our lives so great with their love. Apparently I'm a little more wise than I thought because they took the advice and ran with it and their day was at least a little brighter than it otherwise would have been. So in the end my wife and mother actually felt better after the birthday than they did going into it. Huzzah!
My daughter's tooth turned out to be no big deal. One of her baby teeth got an infected cavity but was getting loose anyway so the dentist just gave it little wiggle and out it came. She's now running around, bouncing off the walls and otherwise raising hell like any good little nine year old girl. If you saw her now you'd never know that this day last week she was in so much pain she could barely see straight. She needs more work to the tune of $280 that I don't have but the office is willing to make payment arrangements and my job gives me $160 a month to go towards medical expenses so that'll take care of that portion of it.
Speaking of my job they gave me a very positive review and I even got a stock bonus! The stock doesn't vest until next Saturday and I can't trade it till November which isn't really a bad thing because right now it's worth over $700 and will be worth quite a bit more by the time I can sell it. My friends are bitching at me about taxes but to be honest I need the money pretty badly so I'll eat the taxes and be grateful I got what I got. I've got a car to fix dammit!
The Whatever:
Halloween is coming up and I basically went broke buying costume stuff. Hopefully we're going to have a pair of Halloweens one for the kidlet and one for us grown-ups. I plan on cross dressing for the grown-up party but as for what I'm going to be for the Kidlet's I am still undecided. I'm thinking I might remake my Grifter cosplay but my wife and I were also talking about doing a couple's cosplay. Pirates or witches or Teen Titans are all on the table right now. We have just under a month and a half to figure it all out so we'll see.
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I won't lie, this month has both sucked and been the source of some real awesomeness.
The Bad:
My father-in-law's birthday was a week or so back, the first one since he passed away. My wife was really hating life, suffering through grief but her mom was an utter wreck. My wife's parents were married over 60 years so mom doesn't really know how to live on her own. Plus she's suffering anxiety like a motherfucker so another reminder of loosing the love of her life is not what she needed. My wife, of course likes to internalize her loved one's suffering which when she's suffering herself only makes things 1,000,000,000,000,000 worse. If that wasn't bad enough while helping my wife through all of this I end having a nice little flashback of my own which brought back all kinds of feelings of remorse and guilt about MY father who passed away over two years ago. So here we are, a whole family of emo bitches whining and moping all over the place.
Then my daughter gets a nasty toothache. Its like getting kicked in the balls one last time after five huge thugs just finished beating the shit out of you.
The Good:
The birthday came and went and as it turns out the advice I gave my wife and her mother actually helped them both have a really good day. I told them the best thing to do on a birthday of a loved one who has passed is remind yourself just how lucky you really were to have known them. I told them we should feel grateful that we have the privilege of knowing the people who make our lives so great with their love. Apparently I'm a little more wise than I thought because they took the advice and ran with it and their day was at least a little brighter than it otherwise would have been. So in the end my wife and mother actually felt better after the birthday than they did going into it. Huzzah!
My daughter's tooth turned out to be no big deal. One of her baby teeth got an infected cavity but was getting loose anyway so the dentist just gave it little wiggle and out it came. She's now running around, bouncing off the walls and otherwise raising hell like any good little nine year old girl. If you saw her now you'd never know that this day last week she was in so much pain she could barely see straight. She needs more work to the tune of $280 that I don't have but the office is willing to make payment arrangements and my job gives me $160 a month to go towards medical expenses so that'll take care of that portion of it.
Speaking of my job they gave me a very positive review and I even got a stock bonus! The stock doesn't vest until next Saturday and I can't trade it till November which isn't really a bad thing because right now it's worth over $700 and will be worth quite a bit more by the time I can sell it. My friends are bitching at me about taxes but to be honest I need the money pretty badly so I'll eat the taxes and be grateful I got what I got. I've got a car to fix dammit!
The Whatever:
Halloween is coming up and I basically went broke buying costume stuff. Hopefully we're going to have a pair of Halloweens one for the kidlet and one for us grown-ups. I plan on cross dressing for the grown-up party but as for what I'm going to be for the Kidlet's I am still undecided. I'm thinking I might remake my Grifter cosplay but my wife and I were also talking about doing a couple's cosplay. Pirates or witches or Teen Titans are all on the table right now. We have just under a month and a half to figure it all out so we'll see.
As usual feel free to stalk me:
Smack Jeeves
tumblr
Deviantart