brokenhalo

you know, i've been meaning to go back and read all of my journal entries from the very beginning. i have such a bad memory and it will be nice to see what i was going through.
it's nice to be inspirational to people, especially when i feel so uninsipirid right now.

Wait for my motivation? It makes sense but it seems so weird. But here is an example...it's been a month since i've moved back and i still haven't unpacked anything. HAHA so i'm supposed to wait for the day when all of a sudden i feel like cleaning? hah. because i don't think that will ever happen....

i suppose maybe that's where i am faltering too...putting too much energy into telling myself that i shouldn't be so lazy and dwelling too much on the fact that i'm not doing anything. maybe i should just relax. oh boy do i have a problem relaxing....

hey, let me ask you something...what is your take on medication for things like depression, anxiety, etc. etc...? curious to hear your opinion.

but, if a lot of people would kill for the free time i have now, aren't i just taking advantage of it or abusing it or something by sitting around and doing nothing? seems so wasteful...eek there i go again putting that stress on myself.

hey you know what? i kinda feel like cleaning my room now....not sure if it will happen...but i feel a little more chipper....hey, THANKS

"*Words from a reformed former slacker and general fuck up.* " hehe that gives me hope!!!