brokenglassheart

today was about the worst day i have had in a LONG time. i almost tossed my cookies at work because of my damn period! so then i go home early so i can open a checking account and they tell me that i need two forms of i.d which i don't have thus no account. so then i go to get insurance for my bug and i swear it took about 2 hours and i was late picking my girl up not to mention the down payment was like $375!! on the way to get her, there was really really heavy traffic and at that point, i lost it. i had an emotional break down in my car. i cried the whole way to pick her up. i was just thinking about how hard it is for me to start over and get my life in order again. i feel as though sometimes some malevolant force is holding on to my little ankle like an evil child would a rat's tail, laughing away with such delight. i just feel so overwhelmed, like i can't take life anymore and i seriously feel like giving up. is it this hard for anyone else to get their shit together?!?! i've gone my whole life struggling with no end in sight and i'm so tired. i seriously try by making a plan and following it, but it is taking so much out of me. am i some whiney little cunt?? i really don't think so, but what seperates me from everyone else in the world who is suffering just much as i am? i'm so confused right now. i don't know if i even have a right to feel the way i do. it could be a lot worse i guess, but when is this struggling going to fucking end?! i hope all is well with you all.

song of the day: THRICE-stare at the sun