brodey

I deleted my last blog (from about a week ago) because I wasn't happy with it.

I am extremely sick right now...not with cold, flu, etc. but with stress! ahh... For the past few months, I have been extremely stressed and feeling the pressure of a lot of things in my life. For the past week, I have been in bed with tension head aches. My back hurts so bad I can't move. I have so much tension in my neck/shoulders, it feels like my head is going to explode off of my neck. I have no motivation for anything. I used to go to the gym 6-7 times a week for a few hours. I haven't been to the gym in almost a week.

I look like hell. My skin is blotchy and dry, my hair is lackluster, my eyes are bloodshot. I just look like shit. It just seems like a lot of shit is going wrong in my life. I've been in a real bad bout of depression as well for the past month. All I feel like dong is sleeping, but I can never fall asleep or stay asleep because of my noisy as fuck neighbors and because I have insomnia.

Sorry about the venting blog, but I really feel terrible.