I am so astounded, grateful and amazed of your continued support on "Bay View" by my dear @merryboudoir and I. This set is my best set out as of yet. From it showcasing the Bay Bridge prior to it being demolished for the new one, the Embarcadero and residents pacing below while @merryboudoir and I are both outsiders whom have made this area our home and became close friends from both living here and SG having brought us together all to ultimately make "Bay View" happen! This set represents both of us, this set makes my acceptance of myself and I will tell you why. A lot of persons on social media have been kind both on the suicidegirl IG anc Twitter account along with mine too but there also those few persons on social media that remark about my back curves or I am too big, too blonde, do not have any tattoos, modifications, ect..but then there is you all. And you all know I am none of those things. I am not too big, I am not too blonde, I may or may not more modifications than half those persons jabbering but you know what? I does not matter because I love my body and who I am, and I am so proud of that because it took years, YEARS to find that peace within. And you all helped me with that.
That pride, that joy and that peace shine within "Bay View" to me and I hope it does for all of you too. This set represents not only what I have blogged previous when it first came out but also the growth I have for myself and the Bay Area that I have grown to love and see myself in all of its persons; the different, the wonderous, the oddities, the sounds, the simplicty, the complex, the stillness yet liveliness, the feelings. I hope with all of mine and your efforts we will get "Bay View" to be noticed one day to be accepted to grace the Front Page. To feel that pride and joy from when I found SG, looking up to those models from back in 2006 such as Reagan, Nixon, Sicily, Manko, Twwly, I could go on forever and you all know I have before. I hope to shine with them, with you, with me. One day, I hope my dream comes true as I hope all of yours does too. One day I hope is not just a four letter words to me but rather a past tense and I can say I did it and I am and always will be more than hope. To prove doubters wrong, to prove to myself I do have what it takes because I feel that I do; and I want there to be accomplishments for you all to feel it too and I hope with that glimmer that will inpsire you all to feel it and maybe even feel it now: have trust with in yourself you got this.
And for me if is not just for "Bay View" but a lot of things I work tirelessly in life and art at since I was a teen. Love, appreciate and accept. I hope I inspire you all to do the same. You can be anything you want to be. You love yourself endlessly. You can be you. It is a choice. And I choose all the good things, even when the bad comes I remember it is to humble me down, I choose to be happy.
Look at all that you have done for me, thank you so much for believing in me and rooting for me along with all the girls here whom never give up and keep trying their best to put out their best. "The only competitor in this competition called life is you. So do your best and try, try, try and you will succeed "<3
I really apprecaite you all, my loves. Thank you for all that you have done for me, continue to do for me along with believing in one another and being here. Thank you always being so kind and supportive, and not just to me, but all the beautiful being in our community whether a member, hopeful, SG or staff. Keep being you and think happiest thoughts always <3
@missy @kiley @rambo @lyxzen
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