09 March 2015
@bloghomework of this week is how has SG changed your life?
I have blogged upon this before of the riveting moments of life, love, and friendships that SuicideGirls has provided for me last year that can be found here, if you would like to gander. But with the many things that SuicideGirls has given me, this site and the idea that started it roots has helped me grow personally, and continue to do so, through my journey as a model, artist and being.
As I have written upon in past blogs, the way that I found SG was when I was sixteen in Tower Records store with my mum and brother purchasing cd's for the car (back when we did not have fancy phones that contain a bajllion songs at our command, ha!). I stumbled into the "alternative/xxx" video section (dirty girl..I know), and picked up the SuicideGirls First Tour with @snow on it. Looking at the back of it with lovely, fun, spunky, and raunchy images of @reagan, @nixon, @shera, @stormy and more. I knew I had to get it! And that was how I go into SG...and when I bought my first considered "pornographic" video. (Totally is not...silly retail stores *giggles to self*)
Watching those women perform, dance, model, hold their own, confidence vibrate through, and more-it was what I needed at the moment in time. It was these women in this punk-aged film that were documented travelling around the United States being carefree, loving one another regardless of their size, kinks, & looks, just beautiful beings in their own way and be proud of it. When I still what that DVD to this day, I feel so inspired and strive as an SG model to be like those women no matter how much this site changes-the purpose I joined SG as a member to a model was to keep the spirit of those women alive and carry their passion and commitment of living life and oneself no matter what happens. I have carried that spirit outside of SG modeling in other collaborative photographers I have worked with: being confident in one's skin and loving one's self to inspire others to do the same. The type of model, artist and being I want to be in life is for those whom look up to me is to inspire them as much as those older SG's did to me, regardless if they know or not. I will not give up becoming an official SG, my heart is set on it. I have so much to thank SuicideGirls for what it originally stood for in the beginning and the glimmer of light that it still does. I am lucky for all the friendships I have mad: the beautiful SG's and Hopefuls I know & love like @herem, @thestral_, @ryynagade @synth_, @_icarus, @arachna & so many more, the creative and amazing Photographer's both Staff like @cdo and Hopeful's like @merryboudoir, the ladies that work diligently at/for HQ like @lexi, @rambo and @lyxzen, for @missy to have created this world for us all to be comfortable in, and you the countless members whom support myself and the rest of the girls whom keep striving in this growing community. This community, I would not be whom I am if I did not stumble into that "adult" section and picked up that copy of sexy and confident bunch of ladies at that sweet age of growth itself into womanhood. You helped me bloom into the flower I am and each time my petals fall, buds burst and bloom even more radiant and full thanks to all your support to continue to grow. So thank you. Thank you to all of you. You are my goals to inspire every day with every post with every shoot and every moment I share.
One day you will be, nostalgia for now.
Thank you <3
Xx
dk
