I'm starting to get stressed about Thanksgiving. Not only am i going home to Chicago to help my parents host our extended family Thanksgiving (which is always crazy and always results in crankiness from my mother), i then need to book it back to WI on Friday so i can help the boyfriend clean the house and get ready to cook and host a second Thanksgiving dinner (turkey and stuffing and pies and all) on Saturday for a bunch of his friends from high school and college.
my anxiety in general is through the roof at the moment, for other reasons, and my social anxiety always gets really bad around my boyfriend's friends.
one of my best solutions to stress is shopping (or buying, i guess, either clothes or movies or books or a new hole or permanent picture for my body). getting pierced actually gives me an endorphin high that is similar to vicodin (which is interesting, from a pain/pain reliever perspective), but i think my mom would freak if i got something new (that she could see) before family Thanksgiving. she lost it when i got my nose stud a couple months ago before another family gathering. i kinda want to dye my hair a fun color, or black, but that will also result in a 2 day long lecture from my momma.
i'm totally the black sheep in my extended family-a lot of them are from the North Shore of Chicago, they have money and frown upon rebellious behavior. i'm 'living in sin' with my boyfriend and have visible tats and piercingsand i dropped out of grad school.
not that i care too much about what they think about how i'm living my life
but my mom is very concerned about how they view our family, and i'm a reflection on her, blah blah blah. when i get a new mod, the way she reacts, you would think i had told her that i decided that my new favorite activity is puppy kicking (nevermind what my parents would do/say if they found out i was on SG).
this is all making me a big ball of grrrrr
sigh. but i must push through. and make some sweet potatoes.
Yum.
my anxiety in general is through the roof at the moment, for other reasons, and my social anxiety always gets really bad around my boyfriend's friends.
one of my best solutions to stress is shopping (or buying, i guess, either clothes or movies or books or a new hole or permanent picture for my body). getting pierced actually gives me an endorphin high that is similar to vicodin (which is interesting, from a pain/pain reliever perspective), but i think my mom would freak if i got something new (that she could see) before family Thanksgiving. she lost it when i got my nose stud a couple months ago before another family gathering. i kinda want to dye my hair a fun color, or black, but that will also result in a 2 day long lecture from my momma.
i'm totally the black sheep in my extended family-a lot of them are from the North Shore of Chicago, they have money and frown upon rebellious behavior. i'm 'living in sin' with my boyfriend and have visible tats and piercingsand i dropped out of grad school.
not that i care too much about what they think about how i'm living my life
but my mom is very concerned about how they view our family, and i'm a reflection on her, blah blah blah. when i get a new mod, the way she reacts, you would think i had told her that i decided that my new favorite activity is puppy kicking (nevermind what my parents would do/say if they found out i was on SG).
this is all making me a big ball of grrrrr
sigh. but i must push through. and make some sweet potatoes.
Yum.
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witchartist:
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vide0dr0me:
Your not the only one stressing about Thanksgiving. Just be thankful it will be over soon. lol get it "thankful" its over hahaha oh I crack myself up sometimes. 