brinny

I feel like i am in a dizzy spiral.
I feel like i don't know the people closest to me anymore.

I feel like i am starting to understand myself better and starting to not understand other people.
I feel like i cant trust anyone and i feel like everyone is staring at me and pointing fingers.
I feel like i am pushed in the cold naked with no place to go.
I feel like a have nothing that i used to and that it will never come back.


Ehhh.
I want my happy life back. I miss being Brinny. I miss being happy. I miss being positive.
I used to be one of those people that always saw the glass half full. I feel like because of the type of people i have surrounded myself with i have become a glass half empty kind of person.
That is so not like me at all.

I thought i lost myself, but for the last 6 months i have learned so much, the good and bad of me.
The extremely happy and the horribly sad side of me.

I am on a search still, but my eyes are new and fresh, my soul is hurt but happy,
My heart is broken but i can patch it eventually.

It is time to be me again.. and it is about damn time!

Brinny

p.s. i have a massive MASSIVE new girl crush... Godiva!!!
oh my!
drool!!!!!!!!!!