I NEED TO MAKE A CHANGE!
Not sure what to do with myself anymore...
Depression and stagnancy are not a good look for me. Hahah ^^^
Instead of doing homework today, I googled "mailboxes" ... not even kidding
I'm writing a story for class right now about a grumpy old man. It's going slower than I had hoped. But I educated myself a bit about the Great Depression for back story. So that's a plus.
I'm thinking about becoming vegan. But I've grown up in a family of wild beasts who scoff at the idea.. so any support or advice would be greatly appreciated. Meat is murder?
Still waiting to find out about schools. They were suppose to notify me on March 17th but they failed too... not sure what that means..
MY EX CALLED ME. ( if you have any self respect [ i don't ] do not click this ) >>>
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
Well like a pathetic loser I accidently sent him a link via text and he called me waking me up. Not recognizing the number (but kinda a little) I half asleep answered. We chatted for a minuet and he sounded really awkward. Like he wasn't sure if I hated him or not.. I played it off like I didn't miss him at all but when he said how he missed me I admitted that I did as well. Over the past few weeks we've texted a few times.. not much has changed. He tells me he loves me (i don't believe him) I make him feel better about his rotten day, send him a picture of my tits and then don't hear from him for another week or so when he is once again horny and bored. I don't feel rejected anymore (good) just used (bad) and to be honest... I'm over it. I was over guys for so long and I finally decided to date him and he broke my heart and I've been all sappy and girly and what's the fucking point? So what.. nobody wants to be alone forever. I won't be. I hate every dude that hits on me but him and I don't even want him (he really doesn't deserve me) so what's the point in being a sad little mess over it? I just feel stupid ALL THE TIME. Truth is I like being single. I'm good at it. I like him and I want him to be someone he isn't and he isn't going to be who I want... so I might as well pick up, get over it, and move on... the real question now is... Do I keep him as my little sext buddy to cure my own weekly boredom??? Hahaha I'd like to think I'm better than that. But... well... let's just say that.. my
loves that
and if I had my way we would
until we had no energy left and
. <<< Hahah I love emoticons. They make me smile no matter what. <<<<<<<<< Dude. Fuck off, I told you not to open the spoiler.. your own fault.. you just read all that shit..
Spring Break is coming!! I really want to get out of town. I asked my mom and step dad if they would front the bill to get me up to see them and some friends but my mom won't text me back now haha so I might go see this little Fox instead. If she is up to it. We can frolic and take nakey pics and tat each other and be girly and have a stupendious adventure. Aww sounds nice right? Someone send us gas $$ plz.
Oh yeah! In other news, I haven't posted a picture of my arm in a while. Latest installment...
I suppose that is all. Take care now. Oh and start yelling at me for not calling Glenn and getting some shooting done!! I need to get on that so I can start shooting girls. I need $$ for a lens as well... ehh anyone got a money tree they might want to throw me an acorn off of? Haha
xoxo
Brinly
And yes, I read the spoiler haha, I haven't talk to you before but come on! Look at you, whatever he did to you it's reason enough to not keep giving him amazing sex, even though you like him and all of that. It's not like you don't love yourself, I mean, it's just sex. But if he was mean to you, do you think it's fair to keep giving him that amount of fun? :/ PLUS, you are a doll, you deserve better than that.
You arm looks amazing btw <3
Where you could of fucking course shoot me, all you want
Thanks for the compliment the beautiful here is YOU.
And yes doll, let go off that bf deal, like I've told you, you deserve more than that