brin04

I thought someone really cared about me the way i cared about them. but i guess not. i was told by one good friend to both me and my ex that she has been dateing someone for about a week now. During this time she has been leading me on that she cares about me, loves me wants to get back together with me when she gets her life straightened out. I guess not this is the second guy she has dated and probably fucked since she first told me this. Not that im jsut looking for sex but i was with her over a month and never did anythign with her, she was with timmy a week and fucked him and has probabyl already fucked scott by now. All this time saying i love you giving me a kiss once and a while and im spending all kinds of money on her. it jsut hurts so bad to find out rumors i didnt believe are true. I thought i had found someone who cared. oh well thats life, ive even lost suicide girls sadly i cant afford it anymore. spent all my money on her. im too nice i guess. I still love her adn always will it jsut hurts that she has had 2 boyfriends since she said "i want to try things with you when i get my life straightened out" adn she has not been the one to tell me either time. Maybe she reallt dose care and is afraid to hurt me but that would be wishful thinking i dont need right noe. im not willing to loose her as a friend but i got to get a relationship out of my head.