bridgetwnpeddler

You know that list of major life stressors? The things that can just push people over the edge...

I feel like I am a living experiment in how many can be piled on at once before you crack.

1. Bought my first new home. My mortgage payment is $800 more per month that my rent was. Can I make it? What kind of lifestyle will I have. It is right at the edge for me.

2. Girlfriend trouble. Oh my... is this the right relationship for me? I am starting to have serious doubts right when she thinks it is a great idea to move into the new house with me. Of course she has nothing to contribute financially to the household because she is virtually on the edge of bankruptcy.

3. Job... Oh I have been over this a hundred times since we were acquired by UPS. Good pay, very unhappy and dissatisfied. I have a job interview this week with a company I have thought I would really want to work for. But recently have heard some bad things... pile on the doubts and stress. Do I sit tight in the boring/dissatisfying job secure in the fact that the mortgage will be paid and the bonuses are good or do I reach out for another right when I am so stressed about $$ re: the house?

4. As though all that was not enough. Yesterday my favorite Uncle died on his way to work. On a motorcycle and a car pulled out in front of him and he died in the accident. He was really more like a brother than a Uncle since he was only 5 years older than I.

sigh...

I just feel like I want to run away. Hop in the car, top down to a cabin at the beach take some hot beauty with me for a weekend of pure hedonism and debauchery...

I just want to escape it.

sigh....