bria

I've crossed a line...I can't ever go back. All the pain, the heartache felt so substantial...until this. My life is forever different and all I can think to do is be relieved. All I can say is "I feel better". All I can think is "thank god it's over" I can know I've successfully lied to everyone and that no one is the wiser. I can know my deception runs a bit deeper. I have one more thing I can never tell a future lover because they would judge me, and think me a monster. Maybe I just think I am, or maybe my head has successfully taken over my heart and never again will I love the way I did before that night. This heartbreak is too complete. Too real to ever, ever go away.