bria

I can't believe I"m already losing him. I'm getting progressively worse at relationships. When did I turn into the girlfriend no one wants to be around? when did I stop being happy at all? when did I become this miserable human being that is just a drag to be around, who can't laugh anymore? Maybe I"m destined to be alone, not alone, but romantically alone. I have great friends who love me. The one thing that calmed me last night as I cried myself to sleep was thinking of sitting around w/ Leroy and a bottle of Jager, like we used to. I woke up this morning in the bathrobe he got me for Christmas, on the couch, tear stained face. Aaron must've taken my headphones outta my ears. Why do I always make things too difficult?