People who don't believe in astrology don't have many friends.
Depression is abounding throughout the lj universe. It's caught me too.
Eck. I've been feeling like a bad stepmother lately. Rachael's been acting up a lot lately. She can be a perfect angel during the day, when it's just me, but when everyone else gets home, all bets are off.
She called me "Mama" at the park today. It took me a while to realize that she was just playing a pretend game. Sometimes I wonder if the kids just see me as just a bossy child. Sometimes I wonder if that's what I really am.
I've been giving some thought to childhood and adulthood and the difference between the two. When I'm happy, I feel very childish. I used to worry about it. I'm afraid that sometimes I'm not very mature, especially when I feel happy. I confided that worry to vanuslux a while ago. His response was, it's ok to feel childish. It's ok to be a happy adult. It's ok to have fun. "Growing up" doesn't mean that I need to burn a permanent frown on my face.
I have a lot of trouble remembering that. As a kid I was trying to be a grown up really fast. I didn't smile a lot. I think I have more fun now as an adult than I ever did as a kid. I was silly.
I find it hard to see my own growth. Others see it in me a lot, but I have trouble. I spent a great deal of time trying to tear down my real feelings and my real thoughts. Now I spend time trying to recover them. They have a wisdom that I just can't make up with the help of society. I'm trying to grow into myself, not out of myself.
Depression is abounding throughout the lj universe. It's caught me too.
Eck. I've been feeling like a bad stepmother lately. Rachael's been acting up a lot lately. She can be a perfect angel during the day, when it's just me, but when everyone else gets home, all bets are off.
She called me "Mama" at the park today. It took me a while to realize that she was just playing a pretend game. Sometimes I wonder if the kids just see me as just a bossy child. Sometimes I wonder if that's what I really am.
I've been giving some thought to childhood and adulthood and the difference between the two. When I'm happy, I feel very childish. I used to worry about it. I'm afraid that sometimes I'm not very mature, especially when I feel happy. I confided that worry to vanuslux a while ago. His response was, it's ok to feel childish. It's ok to be a happy adult. It's ok to have fun. "Growing up" doesn't mean that I need to burn a permanent frown on my face.
I have a lot of trouble remembering that. As a kid I was trying to be a grown up really fast. I didn't smile a lot. I think I have more fun now as an adult than I ever did as a kid. I was silly.
I find it hard to see my own growth. Others see it in me a lot, but I have trouble. I spent a great deal of time trying to tear down my real feelings and my real thoughts. Now I spend time trying to recover them. They have a wisdom that I just can't make up with the help of society. I'm trying to grow into myself, not out of myself.