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This guy surreal should stop being a hog and loan his extra eye to ARRR!!!



Sobriety is only a week or 2 away. If i can just stay out of my car ill make it.
kosomot:
Best of luck man. Give me a call before you go.

[Edited on Aug 14, 2004 10:41AM]
kosomot:
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I swore i would never get a cell phone. I always wanted to stay "under the radar".

Well since my parents worry so much about me, now even more due to my State of Mind, that my dad bought me one.

I also bought a digital voice recorder that comes with Voice to text software so i can stop asking people for a pen and...
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kosomot:
kosomot:
Don't know, But i was just about to comment here when i noticed I had a new comment, and it was you. surreal
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well, i finally saw some doctors and am starting to take PRESCRIBED medication.

hopefully, i can enter a treatment center soon.

I will make it.

There are too many things i want to do and accomplish that ive been afraid to try because of my fears of rejection and failure.

Baby Steps. Eventually Ill get there.

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i dont want to kill myself, i just dont give a fuck if i wake up tomorrow.

can anyone truly let me know if they understand EXACTLY what i mean.

i can be so much fun and i love nothing, nothing more than making people laugh. however, its not a cure, its just a manifestation and a release.

realization and releasing is good. however who...
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bredbyaliens:
im just gonna do a whole bunch of shit at once.


there must be something better.


all these drugs are staring at me.


im gonna give them one last chance
smuffy:
Put down the bottle! ARRR!!!
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I never wanted to quit anything.

I always thought i could battle my demons.

i cant fight them any longer.

its time to go.

i wish i was stronger, yet if i was, i cant see fighting anymore just so i can wake up tomorrow to fight again.

i wish no one ever has to deal with what ive dealt with.

i hope someone, anyone,...
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smuffy:
Better to lay this stuff on me rather than do something to hurt yourself.

*major hugs*
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WOMEN,

Cant live with them, Cant live with them!

Though shalt not commit!


I thought I was wrong once, but I was mistaken.

If my Aunt had a dick, shed be my ...........id rather not think about that.


smuffy:
I noticed you were active in the grpuo this weekend. Great! biggrin

Oh and don't wait for kosomot to get online. He's away! wink
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My Favorite Lyrics right now:


I don't mind the sun sometimes
The images it shows
I can taste you on my lips
And smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and sugary
And softly spoken lies
You never know just how you look
Through other people's eyes
smuffy:
Sweet lyrics.

You know you don't post in the 105. If you don't you will be cut. biggrin

We thrive on activity and posting. The 105 is our home it's where our best friends are. If you can't join then you need to bounce. tongue tongue tongue

Talk soon! kiss
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Things NOT To Do when you suffer from severe Anxiety.


Got to your sisters house for your neices christening, cook for 6 straight hours at a fervent pace, dont eat, drink only alcohol, at your first break sneak outside and get high, way too high(with your dads girlfriend), wait about 3 minutes(should feel like a jackhammer ripping through your chest, realize you are on the...
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kosomot:


20 minutes in the rain. Try 6hrs in the airport blackeyed

[Edited on Jul 14, 2004 5:54PM]
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The first time i ever tripped was after drinking somewhere between 12-16 oz of Robitussin DM. The worst, WORST time i ever had. Curled up in a ball, begging for life with 3 other guys. they sell it in Amsterdam, ive also extracted it from the robitussin. Dextromethorphan(sp), aka DXM. very, very, very heavily sedated trip. only for extremists. i went 5 - 6 times....
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smuffy:

If you could travel through time, where would you go?



I would go back in time to when I wass in college and I just met mt ex and I saw all the warning signs and instead of staying with him I would've dumped him like I should have. Maybe then I wouldn't be in all this pain now. skull

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Calvin Klein.......No Friend of Mine

Don't Want Nobody's Name...

...On My Behind
smuffy:
this is an interrogation, please answer to the best of your abilities:

-when drunk, what's the first thing you do?
-what do you think of turtles? bumblebees? bumbleturtles?
-draw a self-portrait and post the photo
-when someone slaps you, what do you do in return?
-what is a fudgepacker?
-when is pouncing most appropriate?
-how do you propose to increase your comment count?
-draw a random photo, of anything and post it
-kitties or doggies?
-do a google image search for the color blue and post the best pix
-what is your favorite frozen, but microwavable food on a stick?

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oft i hate everything.

oft i love everything and everyone.

i dont want to hate anything ever.
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kosomot:
You really have to stop talking to yourself biggrin
bredbyaliens:
i just dont give a fuck anymore. youve known me too long.