This will be quite a blog tonight ladies and gents!
I lost my baby girl Phoebee Licious Hill <-- Thats what we named her!!!!
She was 11 years old and i miss her to bits. Last Friday while i was at work my grandfather passed after fighting liver cancer The thing is it was depressing but we saw it coming so I was able to handle the lost. Me and my family cuddled together that night and the next day went retail shopping to mend our depressions. When coming home my sister let Phoebee out and her eyes went in the back of her head and she collapsed it was to late to go to our vet so we spent the night singing to her and telling her we loved her. November 4th 1:10am she stopped breathing in my arms and i have never felt emptier or in more pain than when i was watching her take her last breathe. because i couldnt stand the thought of her being buried my mom agreed to have her cremated. it helped because shes physically here. (Call me weird if you want). Now were trying to move forward after the weekend of death <----What i call it not my family. but its been hard. making November 12th (My birthday) the worst birthday ive ever had i refused to go out i wasnt up to it though i was happy to relax finally.
Her new home were also getting lockets i just dont have the money for it yet.
this is the first time we bought her doggy toothpaste she hated it
she would always beg to go on walks just to end up being to lazy to walk the whole way i think she did it on purpose :3
she will be missed so much and below is my grandfather in better days
soooo This year was my first year voting and i was so excited about it. i studied all of the proposals and did research on every name on that ballot. I wont say who I voted for but it was an amazing experience
I have been spending alot of time in hospitals lately if it wasnt a baby being born or a family member in need it was me not taking proper care of myself. For a very long time ive had issues with self esteem and the way i view myself...I was very thin as a child and when i hit puberty I just became so awkward. My mom at this point took in a habit of calling me fat on a daily basis and because shes family i believed what she said. I strongly believe she has no reason to lie about my weight. Id always joke and say that one day id stop eating and id get so thin shed feel bad about what she said. well since may ive been playing with fire. it started with me working out 3 hours or so a day but then i stumbled fast into this world of "ProAna" and met alot of the wrong people at the perfect time. they told me that the quickest way was to fast and so i started fasting 3 months ago and never really stopped. ive lost 40lbs (started at:225 im currently: 183) but i started getting really sick i was fainting and bleeding from places i shouldnt. there were some extreme stomach pains and it hurts to breathe so ive been an out patient at a rehab center now (More by force than anything). But the one thing I have learned so far is that secrets feed the addiction. Theres still so much more i want to lose and i dont think im going to give this up any time soon but weather you read this or not it felt good to write...
And heres some before and after pics In no real order because its late and im lazy
Not sure if I said this in an earlier blog because its been so long but also im getting off medical leave meaning i will be able to go back to school! Im moving out of Romulus (where i live now) next month
Filling the current emptiness in my heart is my newest pet Cuddles the Caterpillar my Pitt almost killed him but i fell in love "A butterfly never sees its own wings so they go throughout life never knowing how special they are"
a little something shocking...Im thinking about going a little deeper into the BDSM lifestyle. It seriously turns me on and so i just wanted to share that lol
There is a new babay in my life...YES! some good news!!!
Eric Sawn Hill Jr. My little cousin. it took him 24 hours to come out and he scared us all but her is in perfect health and even got to see his grandfather before he passed.
last nap for daddy to be
made this yummy herseys chocolate fudge cake for my moms boyfriends birthday :3 thought id share this with you
And now Fangs and Halloween.
Ok now im just gonna post stuff and be out of your way hope you enjoy
i thought this pic was heart warming so i had to share it
these came in the mail for my birthday!!
Another b~day gift tickets to see the killers only my favorite band!!!
HAPPY NO SHAVE NOVEMBER!!!
Hope you guys are doing well and sorry for my photobomb!!!
Lots of Love
~Brecca
I lost my baby girl Phoebee Licious Hill <-- Thats what we named her!!!!
She was 11 years old and i miss her to bits. Last Friday while i was at work my grandfather passed after fighting liver cancer The thing is it was depressing but we saw it coming so I was able to handle the lost. Me and my family cuddled together that night and the next day went retail shopping to mend our depressions. When coming home my sister let Phoebee out and her eyes went in the back of her head and she collapsed it was to late to go to our vet so we spent the night singing to her and telling her we loved her. November 4th 1:10am she stopped breathing in my arms and i have never felt emptier or in more pain than when i was watching her take her last breathe. because i couldnt stand the thought of her being buried my mom agreed to have her cremated. it helped because shes physically here. (Call me weird if you want). Now were trying to move forward after the weekend of death <----What i call it not my family. but its been hard. making November 12th (My birthday) the worst birthday ive ever had i refused to go out i wasnt up to it though i was happy to relax finally.
Her new home were also getting lockets i just dont have the money for it yet.
this is the first time we bought her doggy toothpaste she hated it
she would always beg to go on walks just to end up being to lazy to walk the whole way i think she did it on purpose :3
she will be missed so much and below is my grandfather in better days
soooo This year was my first year voting and i was so excited about it. i studied all of the proposals and did research on every name on that ballot. I wont say who I voted for but it was an amazing experience
I have been spending alot of time in hospitals lately if it wasnt a baby being born or a family member in need it was me not taking proper care of myself. For a very long time ive had issues with self esteem and the way i view myself...I was very thin as a child and when i hit puberty I just became so awkward. My mom at this point took in a habit of calling me fat on a daily basis and because shes family i believed what she said. I strongly believe she has no reason to lie about my weight. Id always joke and say that one day id stop eating and id get so thin shed feel bad about what she said. well since may ive been playing with fire. it started with me working out 3 hours or so a day but then i stumbled fast into this world of "ProAna" and met alot of the wrong people at the perfect time. they told me that the quickest way was to fast and so i started fasting 3 months ago and never really stopped. ive lost 40lbs (started at:225 im currently: 183) but i started getting really sick i was fainting and bleeding from places i shouldnt. there were some extreme stomach pains and it hurts to breathe so ive been an out patient at a rehab center now (More by force than anything). But the one thing I have learned so far is that secrets feed the addiction. Theres still so much more i want to lose and i dont think im going to give this up any time soon but weather you read this or not it felt good to write...
And heres some before and after pics In no real order because its late and im lazy
Not sure if I said this in an earlier blog because its been so long but also im getting off medical leave meaning i will be able to go back to school! Im moving out of Romulus (where i live now) next month
Filling the current emptiness in my heart is my newest pet Cuddles the Caterpillar my Pitt almost killed him but i fell in love
"A butterfly never sees its own wings so they go throughout life never knowing how special they are"
a little something shocking...Im thinking about going a little deeper into the BDSM lifestyle. It seriously turns me on and so i just wanted to share that lol
There is a new babay in my life...YES! some good news!!!
Eric Sawn Hill Jr. My little cousin. it took him 24 hours to come out and he scared us all but her is in perfect health and even got to see his grandfather before he passed.
last nap for daddy to be
made this yummy herseys chocolate fudge cake for my moms boyfriends birthday :3 thought id share this with you
And now Fangs and Halloween.
Ok now im just gonna post stuff and be out of your way hope you enjoy
i thought this pic was heart warming so i had to share it
these came in the mail for my birthday!!
Another b~day gift tickets to see the killers only my favorite band!!!
HAPPY NO SHAVE NOVEMBER!!!
Hope you guys are doing well and sorry for my photobomb!!!
Lots of Love
~Brecca
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remod66:
My condolences on your loss--and my welcome to your cousin!
zebrah:
dude between the weight lose that smile the vag piercings and lip i dont know what to do your so hot i miss u so much text mehhhh