right now i am experiencing the vicious combination of numerous b-vitamins, large dosages of caffeine, half a pack of cigarettes, five high octane beers, vicodan, four days with a total of 12 hours sleep, and the incongruous experience of going to a giant antique store (some people go to parties, i help a friend find a good looking dead animal to wear). in that order. my heart is making an uncomfortable noise like crumpling paper. i look forward to old age with the knowledge that it shall be short.