Do you have a persistent idle thought? Something that pops into your head whenever you have absolutely nothing else on your mind, that stays there and lives for years and years. It means nothing and has no real significance to anything other than your conscious mind reminding itself that it is still awake. Mine used to be the Washington Bullets, but when they changed their name, it didn't change to their new name of the Wizards, but it changed to "That Girl." That Girl isn't a specific girl, and when it pops into my head, I'm not even thinking of an actual girl, just the words, "That Girl."
She comes out a lot of the time when I'm driving to and from work, or doing other such things where my mind sort of goes on auto-pilot for a few minutes.
"That Girl" and I have been together for several years now. I wonder if I'll ever learn her name. I'm not sure if I even care since she's clearly not very interesting, or I'd know more about her. Come to think of it, I'd like a more interesting persistent thought. Perhaps some of my favorite lines of verse, or song lyrics, but I don't think I get to choose.
If this thought wasn't there, I wonder if my mind would forget to stay awake. Do narcoleptics lack this internal reflex? Am I just fucking nuts?
She comes out a lot of the time when I'm driving to and from work, or doing other such things where my mind sort of goes on auto-pilot for a few minutes.
"That Girl" and I have been together for several years now. I wonder if I'll ever learn her name. I'm not sure if I even care since she's clearly not very interesting, or I'd know more about her. Come to think of it, I'd like a more interesting persistent thought. Perhaps some of my favorite lines of verse, or song lyrics, but I don't think I get to choose.
If this thought wasn't there, I wonder if my mind would forget to stay awake. Do narcoleptics lack this internal reflex? Am I just fucking nuts?
avalon13chase:
i have a strange thing to admit..i think of seinfeld constantly..and i dont really like the show to the degree at which i should be thinking of it constantly..when im lying in bed at nite, i think of plots and what i would have done if i wrote the show..etc really stupid shit..while im spaced out at work i think of Kramer..and it makes me wonder,if i dont think about it, what would mybrain be filled with instead?so yeah..im fucking nuts..you, you are ok.