Hiatus is what I suppose I've been on. A clearing. I thought I was losing it. I thought comming on here was a validation of how crazy I thought I was actually becomming. This place is full of beauty and made me think about my own beauty that I didn't believe existed anymore. Boy was I wrong. I don't what this is or why I'm...
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scarecroh:
hey hey welcome back, sounds like you just needed some time off, Hows life been though good?
mrchairman:
Good to see you again... hope all's well. 
So I guess that after everything that has been going on with me, it's finally time to get help again. I've been down this road and it ain't pretty. This disease has won, it has gotten the best of me. When I met Andrew, he made me so happy. I was on a high. I stopped taking all ofmy pills, and had stopped going to...
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_seb_:
I'm wishing you all the luck in the world!! I relate more than you know. I'll send a PM.
niero:
You are not alone. It's strange that I happened on your blog when I did, as I'm having to battle these things again, as well. Good for you for realizing that you need to get outside help. I've been there, and it's not fun. But stick with it. Best of luck to you.
Seriously I need to stop being such a psycho when I drink. More to come on this subjest and more...
Man! I really don't wanna go to work today~! I sound like a crybaby bitch but fuck it! I am impatiently awaiting the weekend. kegs and tequilla, sunshine and bikinis, is there a better way to spend a saturday? I think not! Well I'm off, I'm sure there are a handful of doctors waiting to yell at me! Love you! 
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mrchairman:
Whoa,"... kegs and tequilla, sunshine and bikinis..." throw in a Cubs sweep of the Phillies and it's a perfect weekend.
mrchairman:
OK, FUCK THE SWEEP, I WANT THE WIN,.
Hysterical laughter. Jager stained rug. Backseats. Impromptu trips to Wisconsin. Whiskey burnt tongue. Broken glass. Black eyes. Red wrists. Ecstasy driven dreams. Love lost and lost love. Yes, the chaos of my youth. Beautiful and tragic in a most memorable way. Why lately have I been so hung up on this subject.Thinking and thinking and remembering and remembering. Maybe it's the rude way I thrust...
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theennis:
I'm an Agent of Chaos! 
Not really more like in Agent of Sweetheart.
But nice poem!
Not really more like in Agent of Sweetheart.
But nice poem!
Oh that red beretta. What else in the world could I have wanted so bad at sixteen? He was so damn troubled, and I was convinced I would save him. I honestly could live in that moment forever. Pure euphoria. He walks into the room right, and I am lying on the bed staring at the wall. I want to know so much more about...
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_seb_:
That's pretty intense emotional imagery. Nice style of prose, and a great story.
I'm so sick of running!! The way I see it, if I was supposed to be skinny, then I would have never been introduced to pasta and beer. 
Anyway, my legs feel like they're burning but in a good way. I complain about it enough but I do love it. It gets me all hot too! Now if only my boyfriend wasn't so tired all...
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Anyway, my legs feel like they're burning but in a good way. I complain about it enough but I do love it. It gets me all hot too! Now if only my boyfriend wasn't so tired all... Read More
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theennis:
I dislike being really skinny....
Damn my fast burning metabolism!
Damn my fast burning metabolism!
mrchairman:
I usually start to dread the end of summer... days get cooler and shorter, beaches close, and the baseball season's about over (to me summer's truly over when Wrigley shuts its gates). I run around trying to fit in all the stuff I was going to do this summer. Oh well, there's plenty to do in Sept and Oct... especially when it comes to the CUBS.
I'm not sure if I can make the fundraiser, my wedding anniversary is on Sept. 11th (really), and my birthday's on the Sept. 12th so we've penciled in the 13th as day to celebrate both. Don't know what's on the agenda for that day but if we're in Wrilgeyville, we'll certainly stop in at Johnny O'Hagan's. Raising awareness and funds for autism is very important to me since my youngest brother has autism. I'll spread the word about your friend's event, please let me know what time as well as other details.
Anyway, time to go nurse my slight yet still quite annoying hangover (to much cheer after yesterday's Cub win). Take care of that elbow and hope you feel better.
I'm not sure if I can make the fundraiser, my wedding anniversary is on Sept. 11th (really), and my birthday's on the Sept. 12th so we've penciled in the 13th as day to celebrate both. Don't know what's on the agenda for that day but if we're in Wrilgeyville, we'll certainly stop in at Johnny O'Hagan's. Raising awareness and funds for autism is very important to me since my youngest brother has autism. I'll spread the word about your friend's event, please let me know what time as well as other details.
Anyway, time to go nurse my slight yet still quite annoying hangover (to much cheer after yesterday's Cub win). Take care of that elbow and hope you feel better.
I hate this adult version of myself that I've become. I look at pictures from as recent as 2 years ago and I can't believe how sullen I am. Even a year ago, I wouldn't have thought twice about fucking my boyfriend behind his pool in his backyard at 3 a.m. I guess one of the main reasons I joined SG is to bring that...
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