One week til my BDay. But more on that later.
Well, in the last 12 days, I’ve gone to the gym 11 times. Today included. My only rest day was yesterday and I thought I’d feel more rested and energized and that my muscles would be ready to allow me to increase the weights I use and how many reps I do, but not so much. I still upped some of the weights anyway, but my arms were not impressed, my back was really sore at times, and my heart rate didn’t get up as high as I expected/hoped. This usually happens on days when I go to the gym after work though. Like, my job can be somewhat physically demanding at times, and I feel like that affects how my heart reacts to working out afterwards. On weekends, when I get to sleep in and take it easy, my heart rate gets up pretty high and I can maintain it, but not on weekdays. I should be proud that I’m even getting to the gym and I know every work out and calorie burned is good. It’s just disheartening.
Moving on, it’s a week til my BDay and I’m not exactly where I’d like to be weight and size-wise. I’m having a dinner on Wednesday night and then doing drinks the following Saturday. I still have time to shrink a little, but I keep going back and forth between thinking “Ok, I’ve still got time to at least get a little smaller” and “oh, fuck it, I want chocolate and sweets”. I know I’m not gonna just flat out give up, but I’ve been a little counterproductive with my eating. Only time will tell what my final results will be and I’ll have no one to blame by myself for any success or failure to come.