brandopfer

Why did I stay out so late?
I have to be up for work in a few hours.
Erg.
Damn my fabulous life.
Ha.
Of course it makes sense that I'm online now.
You know because I just wouldn't look
haggard enough if I had more than four hours of rest.
Right.

Last night was ... not what I expected.
You invited me in, and
I said no.
In the past have I ever told you no?
I can't remember having done so.
Are things different now?
Or am I still lamenting the loss of
that pathetic X I called my own?
How maudlin
How dramatic
How unnecessary.

Probably I should find a body
and fall in love for awhile.
That sounds?
a.) interesting
b.) tiring
c.) boring
d.) get your ass the fuck in bed dumb girl.



I resent you calling
I resent your voice
I resent that I
Don't have a choice

Anywhere I go
You are always there
Outside the car
Or in my hair