bradleyoliver

The need to just expunge my feelings on this site. It is funny that this blog use to act like a therapy board for me. I can tell I was fucked up a lot, but what has changed?

Actually, the level of alcohol consumption isn't as bad as my early 20's but it's not too far behind.

I smoke hella more pot now days though, especially living in a legalized city. <3 seattle

I have always struggled with drinking, and I am afraid that if I keep doing it enough something bad will happen.

My brother died from an accident he had while drinking at a lake house. I always fear for my life with paranoia when i fly too off the handle. Later this year, his best friend Preston is getting married. And guess what, my brother stuart introduced them. There is going to be a wild fishing trip bachelor party before the wedding he invited me to. After my brother died I totally tried to absorb his friends, and his life. But I will write more about that later, because I don't want to go into it. He was a funny dude. I miss being silly with him and cracking jokes.

Something I noticed was that i left this site a couple of months before my brother passed away in 2011.

My heart swelled up with joy reopening this account, and seeing all these pictures of people I love, and all my manic writing i would type off. Some weird shit.

Life has been busy for me lately. Since I have "grown-up" I have become a landlord, and I am in a band we are working really hard on called critté & the borzoi. We just were listed as Nada Mucho's 41 bands we are watching in Seattle. 41 Seattle Bands We’re Watching in 2016 It is good to see some buds i know in there. Seattle has been an interesting place to live. It took me a couple of years to warm up to the people here, but it rocks. It has a simular vibe to Austin, but with mountains and water everywhere.

One things that has been torturing me as of late though, is a girl I have been dating long distance since the start of the year. I love her but I can't do this long distance shit. I am getting hit on everyonce and a while too, and I am lonely for sexual attention. bleh, and my ex has been hitting me up like crazy and says she is still in love with me. I don't need this right now. I have the mind to break up with my current girlfriend, or give it a break till she decides she wants to move up here for school. She is from San Antonio. We met at a wedding.....

This really bums me out.

I need to have a talk but I am terrified of confrontation.

So is she... We are both Libras.

I have a lot going on for me right now, I shouldn't be bummed.

Last night I hosted a drink and draw, it was super freakin fun like the last time.

Here are some images I put in our zine:

definitely some women I idolize.... Darlene, because I dress like her. lol.

I like dem high wasted bluejeans, they make me look all sexy-like.

I just bought some black overalls a couple months back, and i love wearing them.

I love fashion. I have a little blonde side rat tail at the moment.

This is a painting the owner of Revolver Bar painted here in seattle. He painted 69 regulars, and guess what he called the show? 69 regulars.

I feel like he was probably pretty fucked up while painting this.

Here is something else I put in our last issue of our Revolver Drink N Draw zine.

The night david bowie died was intense, and eerie because ramona at the bar was already playing him on the record player before we heard the news.

If anyone wants a copy of the zine, send me an email.

blarg.