Fear I'm coming to a cross-roads. Do I want to stay in NJ or move back West.. Do I want to have a family now or wait a few years. I don't know why but the upcoming Christmas season makes me think about these things more often. Maybe it's because so many people are going home to their families it makes these sensitivities more acute. Maybe it's PTSD from the hurricane. Who knows. Sometimes I really wish I knew what happens. Sometimes the ride isn't fun when you're an obsessive.
