Oh I am sad.
Little Melanie is gone.
She slept in the curve of my arms and woke up smiling.
All day yesterday we listened to Art Blakey and then I made pasta and then we ate cookies and milk and when it was time to put her down she sat up for a hour singing a song that didn't make sense and I had to do my best not to laugh(because I was pretending to be asleep)
I wanted to keep her. She is the daughter of one of my housemate's teen mothers. She is what happens when you get fucked into a gang. Poor little thing. The girls is 19 and has one other child(we had her last night because the mother got anotherabortion). She had a little bed but the father of the second daughter took it for his child. She slept in my bed like it was heaven, the two feather beds and king size down comforter. I wanted to keep her. I want to keep her.
But I am a failure. I got two rejections last week. I don't have a damn. I have 8 cigarettes. I whine too much.
I have alot to give.
Little Melanie is gone.
She slept in the curve of my arms and woke up smiling.
All day yesterday we listened to Art Blakey and then I made pasta and then we ate cookies and milk and when it was time to put her down she sat up for a hour singing a song that didn't make sense and I had to do my best not to laugh(because I was pretending to be asleep)
I wanted to keep her. She is the daughter of one of my housemate's teen mothers. She is what happens when you get fucked into a gang. Poor little thing. The girls is 19 and has one other child(we had her last night because the mother got anotherabortion). She had a little bed but the father of the second daughter took it for his child. She slept in my bed like it was heaven, the two feather beds and king size down comforter. I wanted to keep her. I want to keep her.
But I am a failure. I got two rejections last week. I don't have a damn. I have 8 cigarettes. I whine too much.
I have alot to give.
you do
i don't even know you
have a lot to give
but i like you
much
x