christmas went better then expected.
my family got me a lot of hoodies.... which is kind of odd.
and a mug.
do i look cold to you?
strange.
i've been feeling wrecked and hopeless lately,
and i've decided on moving to New York.
i've told my mother, just so she can help me with arangements,
rachel, because shes my best friend, and my friend shane.
i dont think i'm going to tell any of my other friends until right before i move, because, frankly, most of them suck ass and it'll be nice to have them all be like OMG I WANNA SEE YOU DONT LEAVE.
once i get things aranged, i'll tell my dad and the rest of my family, and the rest of my close friends, but i dont think i'll even tell most people i'm leaving.
i think one reason i havnt suceeded is because i have no ambition, and i'mjust so used to sitting and wallowing in hopelessness and depression.
its easy to get used to depression, and when no one i ever telling you "get a fucking job" or "pay fucking rent" its really easy to sit on yer ass and slack off.
i dont want to be a slacker, i don't want to be a failure, i want to GET THE FUICK AWAY!
also, in new york, i won't KNOW ANYONE!
everyone in the fucking bay area knows me, or we have mutual aquantiences, and it's fucking creepy, and it's annoying, and i want to meet someone new, and maybe, just MAYBE, even interesting.
i've got a plan
i'm giong to talk to mom about moving there, living with my aunt, or grandma, for a while (probably aunt as my appearence would likly KILL my grandma)
get a job
get an mp3 player! because god knows i need one now and i will DEFINNETLY need one there
and get the fuck out of this place
not for good, i know i couldn't leave the bay forever.
a year or two maybe?
then come back, or move somewhere else first?
come back, move to the cit maybe?
who knows, maybe i'll come back and everything will be the EXACT SAME (which is far more then likely)
and i'll peace out again.
that would be sweeeeeeeeet.
new years resolutions:
get a real fuckin job
become an official sg
and move to ny
baller!
this is the only real life plan i've ever had.damn girl.
the things you can think up and accomplish after booze, tears, second hand smoke or the mary jane variety, and listening to your friends talk about boats.
my family got me a lot of hoodies.... which is kind of odd.
and a mug.
do i look cold to you?
strange.
i've been feeling wrecked and hopeless lately,
and i've decided on moving to New York.
i've told my mother, just so she can help me with arangements,
rachel, because shes my best friend, and my friend shane.
i dont think i'm going to tell any of my other friends until right before i move, because, frankly, most of them suck ass and it'll be nice to have them all be like OMG I WANNA SEE YOU DONT LEAVE.
once i get things aranged, i'll tell my dad and the rest of my family, and the rest of my close friends, but i dont think i'll even tell most people i'm leaving.
i think one reason i havnt suceeded is because i have no ambition, and i'mjust so used to sitting and wallowing in hopelessness and depression.
its easy to get used to depression, and when no one i ever telling you "get a fucking job" or "pay fucking rent" its really easy to sit on yer ass and slack off.
i dont want to be a slacker, i don't want to be a failure, i want to GET THE FUICK AWAY!
also, in new york, i won't KNOW ANYONE!
everyone in the fucking bay area knows me, or we have mutual aquantiences, and it's fucking creepy, and it's annoying, and i want to meet someone new, and maybe, just MAYBE, even interesting.
i've got a plan
i'm giong to talk to mom about moving there, living with my aunt, or grandma, for a while (probably aunt as my appearence would likly KILL my grandma)
get a job
get an mp3 player! because god knows i need one now and i will DEFINNETLY need one there
and get the fuck out of this place
not for good, i know i couldn't leave the bay forever.
a year or two maybe?
then come back, or move somewhere else first?
come back, move to the cit maybe?
who knows, maybe i'll come back and everything will be the EXACT SAME (which is far more then likely)
and i'll peace out again.
that would be sweeeeeeeeet.
new years resolutions:
get a real fuckin job
become an official sg
and move to ny
baller!
this is the only real life plan i've ever had.damn girl.
the things you can think up and accomplish after booze, tears, second hand smoke or the mary jane variety, and listening to your friends talk about boats.
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See NY is looking better already
HUGGGGGS and NY is not so bad