So its been awhile again since I last blogged ... I go back and forth as to wether or not I would like to start keeping a journal pen and paper stlye or just keep typing my thoughts on here and honestly I think this may be a more affective method for me. Considering that 9 times out of 10 I fall asleep on myself. :note to self instead of counting sheep on sleepless nights JOURNAL your thoughts bore you: I meant that in the only kind hearted way I could.
On music taste- you know your getting older when everything mellows out. As of late its been emo, indie, and 90's alternative... I've been enjoying as those bands that people have thrown at me in the past to listen to but I was all to stuck on my current faveorite. Yes I was a hardcore tool for a couple years and I believe my phase is over. Though time and again I do enjoy listening and its not all terrible. Personally I think I needed to get out of my box. AND I DID
On me- Yea for times of getting stuck on yourself - but hell I'M FUCKING CUTE. and I wish this was a permenante state of mind which I know its not it is just a phase in one of my many predictable cycles (hahaha song playing) but I'm enjoying it at the current moment. I think I have well deserved this "me" time... Let me explain. not being in a relationship for almost a year now I have begun to have a social life again which includes many of my friends who will not hang out with one another so I spend at least 4 nights a week spending time with different friends or when one goes home another comes over. I have no complaints on this friend whoreing if you will. It has kept my depression at bay and has kept me moving instead of spending the majority of my time sleeping and mopeing about.
I think I just blew the speakers on my lap top
On Boys- BAAAAAA
yES I am still single and yes I enjoy the company of a certain boy on occasion who as dicussed "likes me" but does not want a realtionship at the current moment because he thinks it will put a damper on things he would like to do in the future. 
yes i like him as well. yes i think he may like other women. yes i think i'm not the only one. yes if this makes me happy i'm going to keep on doing it. i'm not getting hurt.(yet) I'm tring not to be too relationshipy- Its just difficult. The previous disscussion mentioned took place over a month ago and now I'm at this stage again where I would like some feed back some reassruance as to whats going on. I have many questions and I would like them anaswered but at the same time I feel that if I ask its going to push him further and further away. and at the moment I don't want to do that. so i will remain under the radar without questions buzzing about my life and if he comes around well he does and if he doesn't....well theres probably someone out there who is better for me. I just don't know why sometimes I get this shove to wanna be with someone. So with all this being said at the end of the night ... everynight I sleep alone... and that doesn't bother me
<3
i must go to bed work @ 9 am
and I have to be bright eyed because I have to move shit around
On music taste- you know your getting older when everything mellows out. As of late its been emo, indie, and 90's alternative... I've been enjoying as those bands that people have thrown at me in the past to listen to but I was all to stuck on my current faveorite. Yes I was a hardcore tool for a couple years and I believe my phase is over. Though time and again I do enjoy listening and its not all terrible. Personally I think I needed to get out of my box. AND I DID
On me- Yea for times of getting stuck on yourself - but hell I'M FUCKING CUTE. and I wish this was a permenante state of mind which I know its not it is just a phase in one of my many predictable cycles (hahaha song playing) but I'm enjoying it at the current moment. I think I have well deserved this "me" time... Let me explain. not being in a relationship for almost a year now I have begun to have a social life again which includes many of my friends who will not hang out with one another so I spend at least 4 nights a week spending time with different friends or when one goes home another comes over. I have no complaints on this friend whoreing if you will. It has kept my depression at bay and has kept me moving instead of spending the majority of my time sleeping and mopeing about.
I think I just blew the speakers on my lap top
On Boys- BAAAAAA
yES I am still single and yes I enjoy the company of a certain boy on occasion who as dicussed "likes me" but does not want a realtionship at the current moment because he thinks it will put a damper on things he would like to do in the future. yes i like him as well. yes i think he may like other women. yes i think i'm not the only one. yes if this makes me happy i'm going to keep on doing it. i'm not getting hurt.(yet) I'm tring not to be too relationshipy- Its just difficult. The previous disscussion mentioned took place over a month ago and now I'm at this stage again where I would like some feed back some reassruance as to whats going on. I have many questions and I would like them anaswered but at the same time I feel that if I ask its going to push him further and further away. and at the moment I don't want to do that. so i will remain under the radar without questions buzzing about my life and if he comes around well he does and if he doesn't....well theres probably someone out there who is better for me. I just don't know why sometimes I get this shove to wanna be with someone. So with all this being said at the end of the night ... everynight I sleep alone... and that doesn't bother me
<3
i must go to bed work @ 9 am
and I have to be bright eyed because I have to move shit around
boundwithscars:
excuse my spelling errors ... i am very tired
jorgedetroit:
i am hoping being more social will help fight the depression too! the being single thing is getting old though! hope you and the boy work it out