a week or two of sleeping fucked hours and not seeing the sun and not knowing if i should be asleep or awake or even what day it is has wrecked me. i have been in a funk for a few days. the heat is not helping. i'll get used to it and really don't mind it all that much, it was just sudden and i was unprepared and i tried to sleep through the day and not the night and i feel like shit and there is so much still that i need to get done.
i am listening to black sabbath right now. "children of the grave" is playing. probably one of my favorite sabbath tunes, white zombie did an absolutely incredible cover of this song about ten years ago.
i have been listening to a lot of metal for the last few days. iron maiden, sevendust, system of a down, marilyn manson and a lot of rob zombie. it's nice. metal has such a sense of story to it. at least, a lot of good metal does. i miss that when i listen to punk, songs that go past 2 or 3 minutes that inject these weird little fantasy fables throughout the course of a song, never to be heard from again as the track switches.
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if i'm gonna make this work, i'm really gonna need stability or a studio, preferably both. this room is too fucking small to live in AND run a fully functional design and illustration studio.
i push myself too hard. i need to focus on finishing this project and accepting that everything i touch cannot be perfect. i am very hard on myself when i don't like the quality of what i am creating. i need martial arts. i need to find my focus internally, so i can be at peace while i work.
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i think about palo almost constantly. i have yet to decide if this is a good thing or a bad thing. we have spoken now, in some form or another, every day for the last three weeks at least. two more days and i get to kiss her.
two more days.
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saw High Tension tonight with ThePants. From a recent SG interview with the star:
DRE: Did you feel that the twist ending in High Tension was necessary?
Cecile: No, it was not necessary.
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I didn't think so either. Yet another perfectly good horror film is thrown in the fucking waste bin.
Pussies.
i am listening to black sabbath right now. "children of the grave" is playing. probably one of my favorite sabbath tunes, white zombie did an absolutely incredible cover of this song about ten years ago.
i have been listening to a lot of metal for the last few days. iron maiden, sevendust, system of a down, marilyn manson and a lot of rob zombie. it's nice. metal has such a sense of story to it. at least, a lot of good metal does. i miss that when i listen to punk, songs that go past 2 or 3 minutes that inject these weird little fantasy fables throughout the course of a song, never to be heard from again as the track switches.
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if i'm gonna make this work, i'm really gonna need stability or a studio, preferably both. this room is too fucking small to live in AND run a fully functional design and illustration studio.
i push myself too hard. i need to focus on finishing this project and accepting that everything i touch cannot be perfect. i am very hard on myself when i don't like the quality of what i am creating. i need martial arts. i need to find my focus internally, so i can be at peace while i work.
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i think about palo almost constantly. i have yet to decide if this is a good thing or a bad thing. we have spoken now, in some form or another, every day for the last three weeks at least. two more days and i get to kiss her.
two more days.
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saw High Tension tonight with ThePants. From a recent SG interview with the star:
DRE: Did you feel that the twist ending in High Tension was necessary?
Cecile: No, it was not necessary.
***
I didn't think so either. Yet another perfectly good horror film is thrown in the fucking waste bin.
Pussies.
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i probably heard the white zombie version on the radio before i even heard the sabbath one.