booterpops

The boy of my dreams just told me he loved me...then he went home to his girlfriend.

More later

And now is later...

So a male friend of mine got his heart broken about 3 monts ago. His girlfriend of 2 years dumped him. I offered to be his shoulder to cry on because, like me, he doesn't know that many people in Colorado and his guy friends were being dicks. I've known this boy for just shy of two years and up until recently I loved him like a brother. Anyway, we've been talking and hanging out alot these last couple of months and last week he started flirting with me. I knew this probably wasn't the best avenue to take but I got clouded. As I once told him he is the best looking guy that has ever been nice to me. He looks like a living, breathing Ken doll. I brushed off his advances, putting it down to desperate delirium because of his break-up. We go on as friends. Then this past Saturday night, the evil happened. He showed up at my door because his ex had just departed their apartment with the last of her stuff. I soothed him, as only a woman can and told him everything would be ok. We had coffee and talked. Seeing this person that I cared about in pain was tearing me up inside. He hit on me again and I know I shouldn't have but I wanted to give him this tenderness. I didn't have the heart to say no. I know I am a dumbfuck. So we stay together all weekend. It's nice being with him like this even though I know it won't last. He is on the rebound afterall. So we part amicably on Monday morning. I figured I'd see him later because we work at the same jobsite. Yes I know I am a dumbfuck. We don't work directly together and we don't even see eachother everyday. I figured it would be ok because, so far, the sex hadn't weirded us out. We were still being friendly and close like normal. Most of the day goes by and I don't see or hear from him. This doesn't surprise me because I'm not looking for a big shift in our relationship because of sex. Well around 3:30 he calls me and has exactly this to say. "** (the ex) wants me back. I've spent most of the day moving her stuff back into our apartment. Taking the last of her stuff tore her up like it did me and she wants to give us another chance. Thanks for all your help. I just wanted to tell you what happened and that I'll be transferring away from our jobsite." He hung up and I didn't get a word in edgewise, not a single word toward the end of this relationship. I've spent the last 3 months picking this boy off the floor because I cared about him as a friend. It takes him 5 seconds to break all ties with me. I'm not even mad he got back with his ex, it's just the way he did it that pisses me off. I have never felt so used in my entire life. One moment his breath is skittering across the back of my neck and the next I don't even exist in his world. Fuck men. I'm so turned around right now I don't know what to do. I've wanted to cry most of the day, mostly because I lost what I thought was such a great friend.

Sorry this is so long, I just needed to vent.