booterpops

So, my mom is out of the hospital. She was tested for cancer but they came out clear. She was on oxygen for a bit but she's off that now. Everything seems to be going fine in that area, she's even quit smoking.

I've been really lonely lately and I'm not sure why. I just want someone to be there when I turn around and there never is. I've been grasping at people like straws but they still fall through my fingers.

I wrote a poem with my own blood the other day. It started in pen but it just didn't feel right. I made a small cut on my thigh and used a quill I usually reserve for ink. It was quick and I didn't even give it much thought. The only thing that kept running through my head is that my blood is me and now I, not just my words, have been put on paper. I'm thinking of having it framed.

My work week is now 45 hours. I work 9 hour days, five days a week. It's nice to be a little less stressed in that arena.

I haven't been sleeping well for about the past month. I'm lucky if I get 2 hours a night in. I just don't seem to be tired at night. I want to be asleep during the day and up doing things at night. Maybe I should think about becoming a vampire

I'm still running in the ordinary. I still seriously need to find something to kick my ass out of this rut I've been in.