Not a lot to report. Been trying to keep up with the site. Work is busy and I haven't been very social lately. Tonight went to a derby friend's house for beer, food, and to watch the boat parade. Stayed about 4 hours but it was time to get, did not want to be a drunk driver.
I have a weird relationship with my parents. I think I have the world's greatest parents. My mom and dad divorced when I was 5 and remarried two of the greatest people and all four are very friendly. I love all 4 of them and would do anything for any one of them or my siblings. Well, I talked to my mom today for like 45 minutes. We hadn't spoke in 2 months, and not because anything is wrong. It's just how we are. My dad panics if he does not hear from me once a month or more. It's odd being the black sheep of both families, I went against our German traditions (like not having my own children), and did things on my own like college, religious beliefs, etc. My brother and I are close, but he fits in more with the family yet tolerates me for the most part otherwise I see every one else only a couple times a year, and we all live close or in the same state. So, brings me to my point; I work X-mas, so my family has rearranged most of the gatherings to accommodate. I usually like working on X-mas and avoiding the big to dos of the holiday. Now I have no excuse to miss the festivities. I like visiting, but not when there are tons of people like extended family from some other side that I don't remember. I always feel awkward and then spend a lot of time outside on the patio away from the crowds.
Then tomorrow I get to go to a park as a favor to someone close and everyone there except 2 people know I do not like them. It will be a quick visit to say the least.
I have a weird relationship with my parents. I think I have the world's greatest parents. My mom and dad divorced when I was 5 and remarried two of the greatest people and all four are very friendly. I love all 4 of them and would do anything for any one of them or my siblings. Well, I talked to my mom today for like 45 minutes. We hadn't spoke in 2 months, and not because anything is wrong. It's just how we are. My dad panics if he does not hear from me once a month or more. It's odd being the black sheep of both families, I went against our German traditions (like not having my own children), and did things on my own like college, religious beliefs, etc. My brother and I are close, but he fits in more with the family yet tolerates me for the most part otherwise I see every one else only a couple times a year, and we all live close or in the same state. So, brings me to my point; I work X-mas, so my family has rearranged most of the gatherings to accommodate. I usually like working on X-mas and avoiding the big to dos of the holiday. Now I have no excuse to miss the festivities. I like visiting, but not when there are tons of people like extended family from some other side that I don't remember. I always feel awkward and then spend a lot of time outside on the patio away from the crowds.
Then tomorrow I get to go to a park as a favor to someone close and everyone there except 2 people know I do not like them. It will be a quick visit to say the least.
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Regardless, I hope your holidays ended up being all right and thank you for your comment. I quit taking my meds. They worked, for awhile, then I didn't feel like me. Like you said, we get through the shit. I guess when it is all done, the happiness after makes it worth it. On the meds, I still had downs, but the victory feeling wasnt the same. I hope I make sense. If not, oh well at least you know I am thankful