Been going thorough my annual "Fuck the Fuck!" It seems over the past five years or so it happens each year.... I used to always think it was a longer cycle.... you go through a shitty part of life that brings back to rock bottom, or very close to it and it last forever it feels.... then when you come out of it the grass is greener, blah, blah, blah.... as I get older the cycle has become much more acute.... once a year I just got through some life changing break down.... I am sure this happens because the message being sent the first number of times I made it through but somehow still missing the ultimate message..... I am a hard headed, sabotaging, self destructive being..... I don not do myself any favors.....
Currently I have been down and out, unemployed, broke as fuck, and getting drunk more than I should, which is at all..... don't get me wrong a lot of it has been truly inspirational, and I am very grateful for how much I am protected and looked out for by whatever Being it is to you.... the biggest issue that continues to fuck with me is knowing how to pull my head out of my own ass.... how do I do that.... even when I know the answers I cannot seem to actually make myself do whatever the answers are....
If anyone is interested I am selling my life on eBay, which is hard because I am by no means a material type, so the things I do have, I have because they are important to me..... I do not require much so the things I actually took the time, energy, money, to spend into these things I love..... I am selling a fair share of my vinyl collection and turntables..... along with this (which makes me wanna throw up thinking about actually ridding of this)
Here's the link to the eBay page..... If it is someone that wants it from here, I consider you all friends and family so we would work out something with the shipping....
Keep your head up all.....
Love you,
BoomBoxKnox
Currently I have been down and out, unemployed, broke as fuck, and getting drunk more than I should, which is at all..... don't get me wrong a lot of it has been truly inspirational, and I am very grateful for how much I am protected and looked out for by whatever Being it is to you.... the biggest issue that continues to fuck with me is knowing how to pull my head out of my own ass.... how do I do that.... even when I know the answers I cannot seem to actually make myself do whatever the answers are....
If anyone is interested I am selling my life on eBay, which is hard because I am by no means a material type, so the things I do have, I have because they are important to me..... I do not require much so the things I actually took the time, energy, money, to spend into these things I love..... I am selling a fair share of my vinyl collection and turntables..... along with this (which makes me wanna throw up thinking about actually ridding of this)
Here's the link to the eBay page..... If it is someone that wants it from here, I consider you all friends and family so we would work out something with the shipping....
Keep your head up all.....
Love you,
BoomBoxKnox
A KISS