recent pictures from my life.....
so i thought i had found the love of my life. honestly, sept/oct of this past year, i can say i've never been happier. i'm an understanding person, and i realize nothing is perfect. there will always be struggles in every relationship. but i still fucked up, and started having feelings for someone else..... a really great, caring guy that i find super interesting, who i guess filled the small void that was missing in my current relationship. one thing led to another, and i then found myself caring about two people, both of which i didn't want to hurt. both of which i did hurt. the last month or so have been up and down everyday, i've been so confused. instead of dealing with my problems, i tend to ignore them, and waited too long to figure out what i want. so now, after talking w/ his ex, and other friends, "the love of my life" is ready to move on. i guess i can't blame him, but i've never been one to give up so easily if i think it's worth it. i guess it's not worth it to him, which was the beginning of problems. i can't blame anyone but myself.... so now i'm just sitting here sad, feeling sorry for myself, and heartbroken.
edited to add: fuck that shit, he doesn't deserve me.
don't forget about Emerald that's in member review. 
song to fit my mood
song i've had on repeat
that's all i gots for now.....
xo
