Hola SG.....
1.) Panacea is now archived. I don't know why, so don't ask. I don't like archive updates. Nope. Sure don't.
2.) It's 3:39am. Why can't I ever sleep? Why, I ask you?
3.) I've added some new pictures. I know it seems like I have no life...and well...you're right. I don't have much of a life. But I figure, I don't know when Missy will treat you to my set, so I'll treat you to silly pix of or involving me. How's that? Don't like it? Meh, tough. I like it just fine.
4.) Do you hate it when people tell you one thing, such as "I never did anything with anyone while we weren't together, thats gods honest truth", then tell you they "tried to kiss someone but they had a boyfriend and ducked out"? Then they say they weren't lying to you, they just left that out as to not start more trouble? I'm depressed over this, and I feel like I'm staying with a cheater, and have been throughout the entire relationship. Rob says he didn't fuck anyone, and if he had he would have told me when he said he tried to kiss some girl (cos I confessed to fucking 2 icky military boys whilst apart), but I don't know what to believe. I'm so upset & confused, and I wish I wouldn't think about such things. But it has consumed a good portion of my mind, and I don't know what to do. I'm waiting for it to pass like it always does, but it's not passing. If he fucked someone, I want him to tell me. I don't want to be lied to anymore. I don't care what he says, leaving out parts to the story, and lying are the same fucking thing. FUCK YOU.
5.) I have a photoshoot tomorrow. I really don't wanna go. Upside? I get to meet Asrai, and be naked with her. Downside? Everything else. I like the guy taking the pix, but Rob doesn't. He's jealous. And I know this sounds corny, but I don't wanna get naked for anyone other than Rob. So yea, if Rob is cheating, or ever leaves me....I shall be in trouble. Anywho, I was gonna call it off, cos I really need to pack my shit, but I didn't want Asrai to come down here for nothing. ::stomps foot:: I DON'T WANNA GO!!!!!!!!
6.) Me & Rob went shopping for the critter. She is SO spoiled and she's not even home yet. I've decided her blindness is NOT going to stop me from buying cute shit, and I'll enjoy it for her. We bought her a swing, and rattley toys. We also bought her more outfits, pacifiers, blankies, and I got her the SILLIEST hat. It's a beanie, and it's white with a fuzzie duckie and it says "Duckie kisses" and it has a knot on the top. Anyone feel so inclined to buy for the critter? DOOOOOO it! I'm not in a financial position to buy as much shit as I did today (thank the lordy for Target giftcards).
7.) Things that are great about having a blind child:
1.) She'll never see toys in the store and grab them and stomp her feet until I buy it for her.
2.) She'll never have the displeasure of seeing ugly people (haha, I'm a fuckin ass).
3.) She'll never be afraid of the dark.
4.) She won't know I'm funny looking, unless someone tells her (You can touch someones face all you want, if they have black teeth and cross eyes, you'll NEVER know it).
5.) We can legitimately send her out with a tin cup (JUST FUCKING JOKING!!!!!!! I would never do that....I'm simply running out of funny reasons it's good to have a blind baby).
8.) Wow, I'm still fairly sick. I still kinda have a snotty nose, and I have a dry shitty cough....it's quite alot like whooping cough really. ::dies::
9.) I saw this yarn that looked quite alot like those dreadfalls that people sell for fucking $175+. Dude....all I need is that yarn, a hot glue gun, and a hair clip. Could it really be that easy??? ::wonders how badly she could hurt herself making dreadfalls::
10.) It's 4:10 am. This is around the time I crash out. I'm really not tired. I think I'll go pack some more until I am indeed tired. Then wake up a good 3 hrs. later to begin preparing for the photoshoot. ::sighs::
Questions, BITCH!
Who's ready to get fucked up and do fucked up shit?
Pshhh, not me! I am way too busy. I need to go to the bank & deposit $50. I need to do the photoshoot. I need to pack. I need to go get my lip pierced. I need to transport all my boxes from Wacky Forest to Smithfield, preferably in one trip cos that's quite a haul. I need to dye my hair pink. I need to figure out if this Murray's afro-sheen will really hold my hairstyle. I hafta attend Rob's band practices. I AM JUST TOO BUSY TO BE ON DRUGS THIS YEAR!
How do you make yourself sleep?
Well with my newfound fear of ghosts, goblins, the dark, horror movies, and pretty much everything else, I need to sleep in the company of others. I need Rob in the bed with me, or I need to sleep in my mum's bed, or I need to leave the light on and put Pee Wee's Big Adventure in the DVD player. I also sleep very well during the day.
What are you doing this very second (other than reading my pointless ramblings, and maybe answering my silly ?'s)?
Eating RITZ chips, drinking Sunkist pop, and coughing like it's going out of style. I'm sure smoking helps. BLEH.....
I DEMAND ATLEAST ONE QUESTION FROM YOU!!!!!! Dooooo it.....
1.) Panacea is now archived. I don't know why, so don't ask. I don't like archive updates. Nope. Sure don't.
2.) It's 3:39am. Why can't I ever sleep? Why, I ask you?
3.) I've added some new pictures. I know it seems like I have no life...and well...you're right. I don't have much of a life. But I figure, I don't know when Missy will treat you to my set, so I'll treat you to silly pix of or involving me. How's that? Don't like it? Meh, tough. I like it just fine.
4.) Do you hate it when people tell you one thing, such as "I never did anything with anyone while we weren't together, thats gods honest truth", then tell you they "tried to kiss someone but they had a boyfriend and ducked out"? Then they say they weren't lying to you, they just left that out as to not start more trouble? I'm depressed over this, and I feel like I'm staying with a cheater, and have been throughout the entire relationship. Rob says he didn't fuck anyone, and if he had he would have told me when he said he tried to kiss some girl (cos I confessed to fucking 2 icky military boys whilst apart), but I don't know what to believe. I'm so upset & confused, and I wish I wouldn't think about such things. But it has consumed a good portion of my mind, and I don't know what to do. I'm waiting for it to pass like it always does, but it's not passing. If he fucked someone, I want him to tell me. I don't want to be lied to anymore. I don't care what he says, leaving out parts to the story, and lying are the same fucking thing. FUCK YOU.
5.) I have a photoshoot tomorrow. I really don't wanna go. Upside? I get to meet Asrai, and be naked with her. Downside? Everything else. I like the guy taking the pix, but Rob doesn't. He's jealous. And I know this sounds corny, but I don't wanna get naked for anyone other than Rob. So yea, if Rob is cheating, or ever leaves me....I shall be in trouble. Anywho, I was gonna call it off, cos I really need to pack my shit, but I didn't want Asrai to come down here for nothing. ::stomps foot:: I DON'T WANNA GO!!!!!!!!
6.) Me & Rob went shopping for the critter. She is SO spoiled and she's not even home yet. I've decided her blindness is NOT going to stop me from buying cute shit, and I'll enjoy it for her. We bought her a swing, and rattley toys. We also bought her more outfits, pacifiers, blankies, and I got her the SILLIEST hat. It's a beanie, and it's white with a fuzzie duckie and it says "Duckie kisses" and it has a knot on the top. Anyone feel so inclined to buy for the critter? DOOOOOO it! I'm not in a financial position to buy as much shit as I did today (thank the lordy for Target giftcards).
7.) Things that are great about having a blind child:
1.) She'll never see toys in the store and grab them and stomp her feet until I buy it for her.
2.) She'll never have the displeasure of seeing ugly people (haha, I'm a fuckin ass).
3.) She'll never be afraid of the dark.
4.) She won't know I'm funny looking, unless someone tells her (You can touch someones face all you want, if they have black teeth and cross eyes, you'll NEVER know it).
5.) We can legitimately send her out with a tin cup (JUST FUCKING JOKING!!!!!!! I would never do that....I'm simply running out of funny reasons it's good to have a blind baby).
8.) Wow, I'm still fairly sick. I still kinda have a snotty nose, and I have a dry shitty cough....it's quite alot like whooping cough really. ::dies::
9.) I saw this yarn that looked quite alot like those dreadfalls that people sell for fucking $175+. Dude....all I need is that yarn, a hot glue gun, and a hair clip. Could it really be that easy??? ::wonders how badly she could hurt herself making dreadfalls::
10.) It's 4:10 am. This is around the time I crash out. I'm really not tired. I think I'll go pack some more until I am indeed tired. Then wake up a good 3 hrs. later to begin preparing for the photoshoot. ::sighs::
Questions, BITCH!
Who's ready to get fucked up and do fucked up shit?
Pshhh, not me! I am way too busy. I need to go to the bank & deposit $50. I need to do the photoshoot. I need to pack. I need to go get my lip pierced. I need to transport all my boxes from Wacky Forest to Smithfield, preferably in one trip cos that's quite a haul. I need to dye my hair pink. I need to figure out if this Murray's afro-sheen will really hold my hairstyle. I hafta attend Rob's band practices. I AM JUST TOO BUSY TO BE ON DRUGS THIS YEAR!
How do you make yourself sleep?
Well with my newfound fear of ghosts, goblins, the dark, horror movies, and pretty much everything else, I need to sleep in the company of others. I need Rob in the bed with me, or I need to sleep in my mum's bed, or I need to leave the light on and put Pee Wee's Big Adventure in the DVD player. I also sleep very well during the day.
What are you doing this very second (other than reading my pointless ramblings, and maybe answering my silly ?'s)?
Eating RITZ chips, drinking Sunkist pop, and coughing like it's going out of style. I'm sure smoking helps. BLEH.....
I DEMAND ATLEAST ONE QUESTION FROM YOU!!!!!! Dooooo it.....
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i love this pic of you and asrai: