boo1

::le sigh:: Im really depressed you guys. >wants to die die die die die!< WHY THE FUCK wont my ex just love me. i dont know whats wrong with me. not to sound like an asshole but if yall can hold off on the "move on" and "you're too good for him" comments I'd appreciate it. if you cant tell, they dont work. I wish they did, but they dont. Last night I took 7 hydrocodones. Yes, i was trying to kill myself. I guess if i had taken more I woulda really finished the job, huh. My friends were like "throw up throw up" but it wouldnt work. I was staggering about, and my eyes were trying so hard to shut. but i managed to stay awake. I had 4 cops call me making sure I was still alive b/c my ex told on me......whilst he was getting arrested for drunk driving. Hm. But yea I was really thinkin I was just gonna die. Simply b/c I was too embarrassed to tell my mum "hey i took 7 hydrocodones, you really need to hide those better...Im going to die soon, btw". So i just tried really hard to stay awake. And I did it. boi, i hate my ex. why the fuck does he make me do things like this? why cant I just be like "fuck you dude, i hate you, you suck ass, piss off now!" he will always be the biggest most painful part of my life. hes like some kind of deep ass scar that I have to see everyday when i look in the mirror. I just dont understand why I must feel this way. I dont understand why he cant just want me. I dont understand why i even care. Help. someone love me. OH and by the way, there are some new piccie poos in my little piccie section....enjoi and tell me how nice and big my boobies are!