Hola SG.....
1.) Panacea is now archived. I don't know why, so don't ask. I don't like archive updates. Nope. Sure don't.
2.) It's 3:39am. Why can't I ever sleep? Why, I ask you?
3.) I've added some new pictures. I know it seems like I have no life...and well...you're right. I don't have much of a life. But I figure, I don't know when...
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1.) Panacea is now archived. I don't know why, so don't ask. I don't like archive updates. Nope. Sure don't.
2.) It's 3:39am. Why can't I ever sleep? Why, I ask you?
3.) I've added some new pictures. I know it seems like I have no life...and well...you're right. I don't have much of a life. But I figure, I don't know when...
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boo1:
Piccies of my family
boo1:
My so dear friends
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enigma_entity:
Rock on. I don't have much time, but I am extremely glad that things are going well for you. I hate to say I told you so but...
"I TOLD YOU THINGS WOULD WORK OUT!!!
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Until next time...
"I TOLD YOU THINGS WOULD WORK OUT!!!
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Until next time...
jadedcoca:
nice new ink... 
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vani77agori77a:
MERRY CHRISTMAS
MERRY CHRISTMAS 
Hello SG........
1.) Me & Rob took some new pix of me, as promised. However, due to many technical difficulties, I still don't have em posted ANYWHERE. Not on here, not on photobucket. Nowhere. They're decent. My hair could have looked alot better, and I could have been thinner. Blah.
2.) Rob is going to NY next year. I wanna go. I can't go because...
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1.) Me & Rob took some new pix of me, as promised. However, due to many technical difficulties, I still don't have em posted ANYWHERE. Not on here, not on photobucket. Nowhere. They're decent. My hair could have looked alot better, and I could have been thinner. Blah.
2.) Rob is going to NY next year. I wanna go. I can't go because...
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libertylux:
I know! I posted that I was coming to Raleigh in your journal once, but life gets busy.... I wish I could have met you! I should be back up soon! We'll have to make a date
*Miss Kimmi got archived. I'm a sad girl.
*I'm so fucking tired. Seriously. Not cool.
*Rhiannon isn't catching on to the whole "Suck on the bottle, swallow the milk, don't forget to breathe" thing very well. I guess she's like "What the fuck is coming out of my pacifier? What am I supposed to do?" They moved her to intermediate care, which is good. They...
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*I'm so fucking tired. Seriously. Not cool.
*Rhiannon isn't catching on to the whole "Suck on the bottle, swallow the milk, don't forget to breathe" thing very well. I guess she's like "What the fuck is coming out of my pacifier? What am I supposed to do?" They moved her to intermediate care, which is good. They...
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prettydeadgirl:
just dropping by to say hello 
falias:
fuzzy wuzzy was a bear fuzzy wuzzy lost his hair fuzzy wuzzy wasn't very fuzzy was he?
Hello SG.....
And we're back to the regular boring Boo journal updates. Wahoo! I've been frying my brains out with weed since Friday. The only day I haven't gotten high was yesterday (sunday). I got high with a girl who is 16 (my brother's age....eeep!), but she is cool as FUCK! But anyway, yea, got high with her Friday & today, and got high with...
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And we're back to the regular boring Boo journal updates. Wahoo! I've been frying my brains out with weed since Friday. The only day I haven't gotten high was yesterday (sunday). I got high with a girl who is 16 (my brother's age....eeep!), but she is cool as FUCK! But anyway, yea, got high with her Friday & today, and got high with...
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twwly:
Money, while tremendously important, is secondary to commitment, patience and maturity. Children on their own, as wonderful and joyous as they are, take more time and care than I ever personally imagined. I have a step son, who's almost 3 and it's intense. Special needs children take even more care and patience. I would be personally evaluating myself (if I were in your shoes) more than my bank balance at this juncture.
I'm sure you will reach the right decision.
As far as snakes are concerned, it's not really a big deal they sold you a snake who was about to shed...it's sort of irrelevant. I'm sure your BF has learned his lesson about live food, but it's pretty much a common rule of thumb to feed either prekilled or thawed "prey". I had a Guyanese red tail who was about 10 feet and I currently have a baby Columbian red tail. And a Gaboon viper, a Desert Horned Viper and two Squaminger vipers. I quite like snakes.
I'm sure you will reach the right decision.
As far as snakes are concerned, it's not really a big deal they sold you a snake who was about to shed...it's sort of irrelevant. I'm sure your BF has learned his lesson about live food, but it's pretty much a common rule of thumb to feed either prekilled or thawed "prey". I had a Guyanese red tail who was about 10 feet and I currently have a baby Columbian red tail. And a Gaboon viper, a Desert Horned Viper and two Squaminger vipers. I quite like snakes.
twwly:
And about your mention of adoptive parents in terms of taking money from the state, I'm sure plenty would. But I don't think that's really a factor in whether or not YOU feel YOU should keep her or place her.
Couples who adopt children, specifially special needs children, are totally prepared and interested in supporting those extreme needs. Scrutiny and assessment of those couples is intense and costly. If they can pay tens of thousands of dollars TO adopt, I would seriously doubt any couple would be interested in your baby because of a PAYOUT.
However, foster care systems have far less scrutiny of placement homes and are frequently used for the payouts. Foster care agencies can keep children in their rotation for longer periods of time than they shold because it keeps their income up.
If there was a home lined up, it would be preferable to dropping her into the "System" for sure.
Couples who adopt children, specifially special needs children, are totally prepared and interested in supporting those extreme needs. Scrutiny and assessment of those couples is intense and costly. If they can pay tens of thousands of dollars TO adopt, I would seriously doubt any couple would be interested in your baby because of a PAYOUT.
However, foster care systems have far less scrutiny of placement homes and are frequently used for the payouts. Foster care agencies can keep children in their rotation for longer periods of time than they shold because it keeps their income up.
If there was a home lined up, it would be preferable to dropping her into the "System" for sure.
Hey everyone, let's play a game. It's called "What is Boo Feeling?" Better yet, "Who Does Boo Wanna Kill?". Depression is starting to settle in, along with anger and finally acceptance. Why would you even tell someone you wanna keep your baby and raise her, when in all reality, you don't? Why would you let someone post journal entries about how much they love you,...
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leena1:
i hope everything works out for the best *hugz*
mega:
How ya doing??
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ampersandwich:
She looks beautiful - I don't know if my insight (a stranger!) is important, but my gut feeling is: Do what's best for you, as well as the baby. The broken home situation is not within your control, since you already know marriage isn't like that. You mom's feeling on appearance, it's supperficial & though it bothers her, again, it's not something you can control about her. You can only take control/responsibility for yourself, and now your baby, too. There are so many factors here...her needs growing up, she will have many special needs, you're abilitiy to provide for her, both love & harshly enough, $$ - it's a disgusting idea, but that's a concern. You have to know in yourself what you want with your life, when you decide about keeping her or giving her up, and who the hell is ready to do that at this age? Only 3 days after you've delivered?
I don't have advice, mostly because Im not qualified to give advice and I dont believe in influencing others. I just wish you the best, in all of your various situations, no matter what choices you stand up and decide upon. I know you seem to be getting alot of love from the other SG folks, and I want to say that you seem like a very strong & determined woman, and I'm sure whatever decision you choose, you will need to stay strong - best of luck & best wishes. I didnt see anything written, but if you have stitches, healing of your own, too, take your time, dont push yourself physically, and let yourself heal.
Best--
Y~!
I don't have advice, mostly because Im not qualified to give advice and I dont believe in influencing others. I just wish you the best, in all of your various situations, no matter what choices you stand up and decide upon. I know you seem to be getting alot of love from the other SG folks, and I want to say that you seem like a very strong & determined woman, and I'm sure whatever decision you choose, you will need to stay strong - best of luck & best wishes. I didnt see anything written, but if you have stitches, healing of your own, too, take your time, dont push yourself physically, and let yourself heal.
Best--
Y~!
silencenoir:
She has YOU and needs you, that's the most important thing. She is really precious. Best wishes with everything
Thank you all for the birthday wishes. This will definately be a birthday I won't ever forget. My water broke on Nov. 26th. I was in the hospital all of the 27th (my bday). I delivered my baby @ 3:28 am on Nov. 28th. Rob was with me most of the time. I had her w/o any drugs, and I pushed her out in 28...
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rosemarie:
I'm so sorry honey. 
My thoughts are with you.
My thoughts are with you.
simon:
Sending lots of Love and Light your way. Big hug for you.
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panacea:
that bite was nasty. is it better now??
hope so.
and happy belated birthday!
xoxo
hope so.
and happy belated birthday!
xoxo
hlb:
Happy late b-day! was it love at first bite?
xx
i love this pic of you and asrai: