(vent from a noisy mind)
In life, we meet people and countless people. Unfortunately 99% of them are people not to be trusted. Whether romantically, friendships and family. Especially the completely unknown ones. The unknowns are the "best". You know, you minimally identify and maybe you go places, there are moments... All casually. But never trust anyone. Because? Because always in the middle or at the end. Usually at the end you will see that you shouldn't have gone past the beginning. They lie, deceive, pass over, seduce you, make you believe in a new world, minimally show you a new reality, but in fact it is just the reality that you unconsciously created yourself in your head. Maybe to escape your reality, you will escape the ordinary, everyday life or even because you want to experience something that is not part of your "normal". The famous expectation!
The problem is not having her with things around her or people. What are generally aimed at people. The problem is you wait for them to come true. It won't come true. I'm not saying it's for everyone, but it's definitely just for 1%. For most it will just be in their own imagination. And today I know, without a shadow of a doubt, I am not part of that 1%. They say envy is a bad thing anyway. I don't see it like that... I envy those who have an easy way of life, who do not suffer from psychiatric problems, who have a peaceful life, who do not have to worry about whether they will be able to eat the next day, if they will not have a crisis that will not let them get out of bed. bed and take care of their basic needs, who has a good family, who can get a good relationship, who can buy a house or apartment. But this envy is not wishing that these people who have it all, don't have it. Envy is not for people who get half of these things, have not. Envy is (mine) motivating and imagining myself that I could be that person. That I also deserve to get. The message is: don't trust anyone. Even on himself.
Don't trust 100% even your mind. You can't put all your life fixes on something or someone. even on you. You change, the world changes, the people around you too. But don't trust anyone because no one will save you from your abyss, your loneliness, your thoughts and much less your expectations. Don't expect that you will be part of the 1%! Those same people that you think will be everything, and promise you everything, in the end... They will be nothing! They will not comply with what they say and much less with what you expect!
