What the fuck is wrong with me. I just found out my great-grandmother died, it wasn't a big shock she was in her nineties and had been suffering from dementia for quite awhile.
It's not like I don't feel bad, I do. But I haven't had even the tiniest urge to cry. I mean we weren't very close at all. But my grandmother practically raised and is one of the most important people in my life, and her mom just died and I can't even shed one tear for her.
I mean I cried when I watched Bridge to Terabitha (that's right I cried so what ).So why can't I cry now? Maybe it'll hit me more later. As weird as it sounds I think I would feel better if I felt worse.
It's not like I don't feel bad, I do. But I haven't had even the tiniest urge to cry. I mean we weren't very close at all. But my grandmother practically raised and is one of the most important people in my life, and her mom just died and I can't even shed one tear for her.
I mean I cried when I watched Bridge to Terabitha (that's right I cried so what ).So why can't I cry now? Maybe it'll hit me more later. As weird as it sounds I think I would feel better if I felt worse.
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liv:
u cant fake feelings as hard that this might sound...
lillithvain:
How have you been doing? You haven't updated in a while so I wanted to leave you this message to see if you are ok.