My brain is all over the map today (tonight). Insane day at work - nothing bad happened, just SO much going on. It's all worth it in the end, it's just a bit of a slog to get there.
I spent some time looking at retirement (I am aiming for 55 - though that is going to be hard as hell to hit) - I want to buy a house, then fix it up. Yay for being handy! I would *love* to use my hobby-skills to really make a house shine. hand-forged railings, hand made furniture, long-term eco friendly designs...
AND, travel to places I can't pronounce. Fuck.Yeah.
Also, this site occupies my thoughts a lot. Seems that I am missing something in my life that SG provides. An outlet maybe? People are themselves here, without fear of judgement. I play a role at work, then at home...and neither is truly me. How to fix that? no fucking idea.
I spent some time looking at retirement (I am aiming for 55 - though that is going to be hard as hell to hit) - I want to buy a house, then fix it up. Yay for being handy! I would *love* to use my hobby-skills to really make a house shine. hand-forged railings, hand made furniture, long-term eco friendly designs...
AND, travel to places I can't pronounce. Fuck.Yeah.
Also, this site occupies my thoughts a lot. Seems that I am missing something in my life that SG provides. An outlet maybe? People are themselves here, without fear of judgement. I play a role at work, then at home...and neither is truly me. How to fix that? no fucking idea.
You know, I am not sure that I am any more authentically myself here than I am in the rest of my life- I feel like the way I am here is a reaction to reality, it's responsive to how things are going for me and where I'm at. Sometimes it's just a little self indulgence, and not always the good kind. I would like to think that I am not at core as obsessed with myself as I may seem to be here, in writing. Perhaps living a life so utterly devoted to caring for others leaves me with this need for self-centeredness. Either way, bob, I am glad you have this place and it's working for you. You always struck me as a guy who could use an excuse to unwind.