bobsmith66613

everyone in WATERTOWN your age is getting married and having kids. You need to get out of Northern New York because it will eat your soul. I'm dead fucking serious. First chance you get, kid, you run and never look back. And don't fuck up like I did so you're forced to come back, either.

There's a whole goddamn world out there where people don't wear sweatpants every day, decide not to have kids until they're at least 30, if ever, and don't plan to ever settle down. You're not behind in life. This area is at a sort of fast-forward because a lot of people up here don't HAVE more to their life than that. Think about it. A lot of these people are really really sad. They don't have serious hobbies, creative endeavors, ambitions for a professional career. They're happy if they can collect welfare, or work their job at the mill, or the store or whatever, go home, drink beer, watch whatever the rest of the mindless drones think is good on TV, lather, rinse, repeat. Don't buy into this version of "happiness" until you know what else is out there.

A kind friend once told me "You're only as lost as you feel" and you seem like the perfect person to pass that wisdom on to.

But then again if you don't feel lost, more power to you. Though if you do it's probably a good thing. It means you care enough about yourself and your life to actually consider things before just going off and doing them because it seems like what you aught to be doing, Or maybe I'm just trying to rationalize my own misery. Whatever. I'm going to fucking bed so maybe I won't flip out and get mopey tomorrow. Big fucking maybe.

yeah, my ferret was the same. she just wanted to bite my toes and poop under my bed-even though she had a litter box.
no, doesn't sound like you're over-exagerating.
hang in there.