bluvelvet

so, i drink. i drink and then i unleash little bits of my life/mind/greater conciousness to all of you. i know nearly no one reads this, (no offense meant to the wonderful few that actually do, i am just being realistic) yet i do it because it is remarkably cathartic. serioulsy, it surprises even i.

so here is what i think is a problem. the woman that i have been seeing, is acting decidedly different. now, people being people and women being women, this is not out of the ordinary. but, if i learned anything from the half a decade or so that i spent living with a woman, even a seemingly small change usually means something big.

so that brings us to the case of A. there was a time, not long ago at all and not seperated by some big shift in dynamic in our relationship, that we would communicate by email up to several times a day. that has seriously dropped off to one message every two days. and then there was last night. there was just a layer of well earned familiarity that just wasn't there. it was a weird weird feeling.

see, thats the other thing, we hang out and things are usually awesome when we do, but last night was something else. in a really bad way. its hard to put this shit into wordss, because it is sooo subtle. i almost feel like an ass talking about it, but subtle as it is, i know its there.