bluvelvet

so its official. i am a bonafide grown up. capable of rational thought beyond all that i thought possible. you see, i have just returned from a party where my old girlfriend (of six years, lived together years) came with her new boyfriend. it was great. i never expected it to completely not affect me, but thats how it went down. i can finally get on with my life. finally. too good.

and all this happens when i have no good idea what the hell A wants. i don't know what she expects and i don't know what is going on quite frankly. she doesn't strike me as shy, but somehow thats how she comes across, sorta. i am perplexed. all i know is that i know how to appreciate now. which is a skill i have not posessed 'till now. its a big thing, for me at least, to recognize good as its happening and not in some "salad days" remembering. Eeeentersting.......



a new chapter in life awaits, i stand ready.