i knew that this would happen. in '02/'03 i spent 12 of those 24 months laid off. its the world of commercial construction durning a recession. anyway, during that time (always in the gloomy winter) there is a lot of "what the fuck am i doing with my life?" internal dialogue. so, i decided that i want to go back to school. if its to find a new career i don't know what that career would be. i think that i want to go back to keep my brain from atrophying (sp? see its happening already) and also because i can't keep dealing with the people that i work with. not anyone specifically, but the blue collar world that i see in general.
*DISCLAIMER* i don't mean to offend anyone that is in any of the trades. being a carpenter has been my sole means of supporting myself for the last six years and it is a really good job. my father, his father, and his father before him were all blue collar tradesmen. all im saying is that it gets a little taxing to be surrounded by people that think the word "Arab" rhymes with "Ahab," double negatives, one of which is usually ain't, used at least once in every sentence, and a almost obsessive need to move out to the Romeofield/Plainville area so their kids can go to a high school that is ninety some percent white.
i don't know if that sound whiney, petty, eliteist, or a little of all three, but its how i feel.
anyway, work has really picked up for me this year, and i am becoming way too comfortable with the money that i am making, and i guess that i am afraid that with work picking up the impetus to get back to academia will fade. i feel, now, that i need something more, but i fear complacency bought by a good wage. i am going to try to travel abroad this spring/summer maybe that will help.
*DISCLAIMER* i don't mean to offend anyone that is in any of the trades. being a carpenter has been my sole means of supporting myself for the last six years and it is a really good job. my father, his father, and his father before him were all blue collar tradesmen. all im saying is that it gets a little taxing to be surrounded by people that think the word "Arab" rhymes with "Ahab," double negatives, one of which is usually ain't, used at least once in every sentence, and a almost obsessive need to move out to the Romeofield/Plainville area so their kids can go to a high school that is ninety some percent white.
i don't know if that sound whiney, petty, eliteist, or a little of all three, but its how i feel.
anyway, work has really picked up for me this year, and i am becoming way too comfortable with the money that i am making, and i guess that i am afraid that with work picking up the impetus to get back to academia will fade. i feel, now, that i need something more, but i fear complacency bought by a good wage. i am going to try to travel abroad this spring/summer maybe that will help.