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I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown earlier this week, but things are now remarkably better. 3 Days till LSAT and the big dance at my school.

After the test I will immediately start drinking enough so I forget to stress about how I did, change into my incredibly short, hot dress, then high tail it to the hotel to get the party started. I can't even imagine how amazing it will feel to walk out of that building, knowing that this unfortunate episode of my life is over.

Next week I'm going to visit the boy. I miss him so fucking much, it has utterly consumed my thoughts. I know that he is pretentious and probably not all that cute or something, but I've been in love with him since 9th grade. Its been so miserable to just know that you are perfect for someone, and see him continuously dismiss the idea. But now he's convinced apparently, and I can't quite believe it. I keep thinking about us kissing/ fucking/ holding hands/ sleeping next to eachother. Its so unreal to have the thing that I imagined and hoped for come true. It makes me worry that I'm about to die or something, its all just going too well.

I'm keeping my distance though, all is not lost yet. I liked myself single, and I'm not quite ready to give up on it for another tough long distance relationship. We shall see...

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