blujinxx

I saw you in your wedding gown
The prettiest dress
I came into the room that night
And made such a mess
In my own way, I lovingly kiss the bride
With your ring in your hand
Your eyes and your mouth open wide

In my eyes
Blood drops look like roses on white lace
They won't wash away
In my mind they're roses on...
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wish i'd been there

oh yeah motherfucker, i'm gonna kick your fuckin derierre yeah

Your god is a fossil
Abandoned apostles
Get down and join hands to explode

One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest is the most depressing book I've ever read. Wanna commit suicide? Go ahead and read it when you aren't on your medication. Not on medication? Consider it before you read this book.

Ghost-light, soft and frail
Leaves no footprints where it treads
Empty and weeping dry tears
Shade of a shadow in smoke
Tired mind constantly consuming
Yearning churning turning ideas
Into hopes into dreams into nightmares
Into reality until everything bleeds
And the blood is white empty paper
Smoldering from a ring in the middle
A cigarette burn slowly spreading
Devouring resistance with indomitable time
Shadow...
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From what I gather, A1AT deficiency is a powerful ailment that kills without mercy. My biological grandmother was about 43, my biological father was 42, 10% lung capacity when he died. Assuming that I hav another sixteen years to live, what do I do with this time? Sixteen years sounds like a long time until you consider that I'll be somewhere around forty years old...
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A dichotomy in sheep's clothing. A messiahnic complex. I hate humanity and yet I desire to help it overcome its insignificant differences. Whom the gods would destroy they must first drive mad, and they're doing a pretty good job of that. Good thing I've aligned myself with Eris, madness is to be expected, so giant middle finger to all you other cosmic forces. Kill me...
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i feel like more animal than man lately. like most of the things that made me human are slipping away. am i finally going crazy? is this what it feels like? i remembered a weird vision i had when i was a kid. i walked outside the trailer (yes i was trailer trash at the time) and there was a ring of wolves sitting shoulder...
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Going out tomorrow to Austin, gonna try to meet up with this guy again about selling his bar. Lunesta has stopped working for me. I am now attempting to take six at one time. If I never write here again, asume that I'm dead. But try to keep a positive attitude.

Took a bunch of guys down to the Warrior Leader Course today, and wouldn't you know it was our resident Mortar who was the only one missing anything. WTF guys! i don't even want to talk about the rest of the lies and bullshit that went on today, i'm sure your boy or girlfriends can fill you in on anything you're missing.... suffice to say...
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one of my most favoritest songs. go figure, right? a guy who worships chaos loves a song called "Go With the Flow." fuck you. so what if i've known since the beginning that my relationship was doomed to failure? i still stuck with it for six years, going with the flow. you think this is easy? do you think that i can devote a quarter...
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