bluestreak

You know what else makes me sad. Being skint. I've barely left the house this week cos I haven't had any money. I've been put forward by two jobs by my agencies and I haven't heard back from any of them. I had an interview last week but didn't get it. I've applied for four jobs so far this week. I just don't seem to be able to get permanent work. The only thing I can do is lecturing and there aren't any jobs for FE teachers of English in london this school year. I don't understand how I can get accepted onto the best teaching course in London (and maybe even the UK) despite my shit qualifications and experience, but can't get a simple admin assistant job. Maybe teaching is the only thing I'm any good at, but fuck me it's not a job for a depressive substance fiend! The thought of going back scares me. What to do instead I wonder.... If i could just get a job that enabled me to save for a few years I'd go into academia and write research papers on literature and the modern world, teach at universities and generally be happy. But I can't get any fucking work. Sucks.