My roommates told me they're moving in a few weeks they've already found a place. Looks like I'll be getting rid of them sooner than expected. I still have till the end of May to find something though I haven't been looking much. I did hear mention of some place that offers short leases so I don't know guess I'll go check that out soon. I've just been in a lazy depressed mood that I'm trying to get out of.
I'm sort of pissed at Gabrielle because she blew me off on friday. Earlier in the day she had sent me a message on AIM about wanting to hang out which I said I would and she was going to get back to me but it was pretty much decided we'd go to kent. Well I didn't hear from her so I called but she didnt' answer so I left a mesage then called Heather only to find about Gabrielle is up in Cleveland getting drunk most likely with the new boy she's hanging out with. So for the past few weeks I've been getting blown off while the past few months I've been helping her deal with her break up. I think it's a pretty lame way for a friend to act if you ask me but what do I know.
Yesterday I really didn't do much during the day. Last night I hung out with Beth going out to kent to drink with afew of her friends it was pretty cool the weather was nice sort of so we got to hang out on the patio. I think I'm getting uncomfortable sort of with how things are going it seems like when we hang out I end up getting drunk then we make out. The affection is nice I love affection but at the same time I don't want this to affect things as friends because well I'm still single and I'm still looking to meet someone so I don't want it to become weird if I do. I know if things carry on feelings are bound to get hurt that's just how it seems to work.
I just really need to get my head straightened out which seems an impossible task as of late.
I'm sort of pissed at Gabrielle because she blew me off on friday. Earlier in the day she had sent me a message on AIM about wanting to hang out which I said I would and she was going to get back to me but it was pretty much decided we'd go to kent. Well I didn't hear from her so I called but she didnt' answer so I left a mesage then called Heather only to find about Gabrielle is up in Cleveland getting drunk most likely with the new boy she's hanging out with. So for the past few weeks I've been getting blown off while the past few months I've been helping her deal with her break up. I think it's a pretty lame way for a friend to act if you ask me but what do I know.
Yesterday I really didn't do much during the day. Last night I hung out with Beth going out to kent to drink with afew of her friends it was pretty cool the weather was nice sort of so we got to hang out on the patio. I think I'm getting uncomfortable sort of with how things are going it seems like when we hang out I end up getting drunk then we make out. The affection is nice I love affection but at the same time I don't want this to affect things as friends because well I'm still single and I'm still looking to meet someone so I don't want it to become weird if I do. I know if things carry on feelings are bound to get hurt that's just how it seems to work.
I just really need to get my head straightened out which seems an impossible task as of late.
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Im pretty sure I got my head straightened out. Im more or less doing damage control now on everything I fucked up do to my worrisome mind. Ive learned to just go with the flow and let things work themselves out. The less you interfere and try to MAKE things happen, the better off you will be. Theres only so much you can really control. Find those things and focus on them. Let everything else be.