blueleftshoe

All I've really done today is nap. Beth had invited me to go over her families for Easter but eh I'm tired and Easter really isn't a holiday I care much about since well I don't follow religion or easter bunnies. I had thought about going to see Grindhouse but I don't know going out in the cold weather just didn't sound exciting besides being alone today is nice. I have a million different things running through my head and a million different things to decide I don't know what's what. I do know I think too much I need to act instead of just thinking.

I've actually almost have finished a book wow it's been about a month or so since I have been able to. I don't know I went into this year thinking I was doing something but I don't know my mind has been sort of warped I guess giving me a false sense of reality. I need to calm my brain down so I can concentrate I think I need to chill on the drinking.. not to say I'm abusing it but I've been using it not to think or feel at times which I'm thinking I need to do. I just have to stop doing what's comfortable or trying to ignore unpleasant things that doesn't seem to work all that well. Right now I'm just feeling low and weak I'm trying not to be so much. I think when I move I may not get the internet I waste too much time on here doing unproductive things.