blueleftshoe

I like having numb lips.

Yesterday ending up being much better. After getting home I felt a bit cranky for reasons I stated along with I'm just a moody fucker as anyone who knows me will tell you. I'm not all bad though I tend to make myself sound worse than I actually am. Anyways I spent most of the morning/afternoon cleaning up the house. My room is still pretty much a mess but it's looking better and I got some laundry done. Gabrielle called me to have lunch she needed someone to talk with since she's just broken with her boyfriend of two years. She ended up delaying it though and not coming over til dinner which was fine I was just cleaning. We went to Bennigans to eat and had a cocktail after that I suggested Brubakers for a few more luckily they allowed smokings as she smokes and I will on occassion if drinking. Anyways we had a few more long islands and I listened to her talking doing my best to make her feel better listening to people talk is one of my better qualities I don't mind it for the most part. After that we went back to my place picking up a six pack watched a little tv my roommates we up so she decided to tell them about her whole life as well it was kind of funny the girl can really talk that's for sure. We stayed up for a bit more watching the Sarah Silverman program and south park (which I have to finish watching I tivoed it) then Gabrielle passed out on the couch and I went to bed. End of the day... well actually I talked to Lisa a bit online when I got back to my room. I sort of feel bad for being annoyed at her she's not bad it's just the school thing like anything else... ugh. Well I enjoy seeing her but I'm just going to do my best to keep it slow and see what else is around. That's where I am in my life I don't know I want to meet someone not in school at the moment not totally consumed with something. Perhaps I just need to see I should be dating around I'm trying that but I always feel guilty I might be hurting someone by doing that I try not to give the impression I'm going for anything serious. That's when people seem to attach bonds though well in my life anyways. Ha you should of heard my wonderful pep talks I was giving last night about being single and how to approach relationships if I could only follow with them and believe them as it pertains to me.

you know what I need?